i dunno how to start this post.

well, its been almost a week that ive been living in hell, waiting for a ans or response, which i didnt get.

perhaps its time that i shud buck up and start living.

no ans nothing from him at all.

the disappointment, the anguish & of cuz the heartbreak - i really cant describe.

disappointed that we cant even talk things out. i know ure stressed, i wun wanna force u to be with me anymore. but i just wanna know the reason behind this. its too sudden, i dun think any normal girls can take it.

angry that im treated so unfairly. u say i should think in your position, so did you think of mine when u just walked off and leave everything for me to imagine?

heartbroken that our r/s cant even withstand this - and to think we even make plans for the future. hai. whenever i think of this, my heart really feels like its been torn apart.

i really didnt know whats the reason for all these - that u can even put down our r/s. it just shows that u aint concerned and placed no importance at all. what are all those promises and dreams for? im utterly disappointed and upset. (i did not use the word disgusted, cuz deep down in my heart, i still love you like before)

ive sorted out my thinking. my life will be back to normal soon i hope. (but i really pray that there will be a miracle still, thou i know its almost impossible).

hai, sad to know that things turned out like this, for whatever reasons i dunno. it just saddens me to see how we have changed from so close to so far.

nobody knows the pain in my heart.

the pain of she-bu-de.

i loved you, and love you still.