finally after 48hrs or so, i feel atad hungry and finally ate a small portion of food.

and im happy to say, i weigh 46kg now. (pls dun get it wrong, i wasnt on a diet. i just dun have the mood to eat or do anything)

which girl doesnt like her weight to be decreasing? okok, 45 is the max ok? (but i wouldnt mind 43 also)

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the long anticipated monday is coming. actually i already got the ans on sat. but i was just deceiving myself, to see if he would change his mind when i really give him a peace of mind to think it over. i didnt respect his decision of wanting a bit of time by himself. instead i kinda bombard him everynight. im really so so so sorry. i didnt really mean it. i was suffering every night and day, i let my emotions got the control of me. and in the end, i got the ans that i feared most.

i told him i'll give him a time to think it over. this time i mean it. but i was so afraid that he will still stick to his old decision. im really really very scared. its been some time since i have this fear in me. i regretted deeply what i did.

even thou i really wish that monday will be here soon, but if really he wants to tell me the ans, i think most prob i will just say no, u go and think it over pls. for as long as u like. im really very afraid to know the ans. hai.