does eating painkillers kill the pain in the heart?

doc told me i can eat them if i got any pain.

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the 3days seem to pass sooo slow.

it feels like im waiting for my results, my performance.

i started to have this fear within me. a fear that nobody could have shared with me.

if only, i was more understanding and not stubborn. if only, i could be in your shoes and think in your position.

if only if only. the things that ive done - i regreted again.

why cant i just seem to make things right? sobs.

i cant wait for monday to come, yet am terribly afraid of what may come.

i feel so insecure, but i still have to be strong and say im willing to change for you.

and i really mean it.

all i ask for is a second chance.