2010 is finally come to an end. I cant decide if this has been a good yr or bad yr. Of course, I have my ups and downs, like everyone. Let me list down the memorable things I can recall (if i can remember, LOL. I have STM if some of you might know, heee)

Okay, downs first.. (*suddenly got sth stuck in my brain and i dunno how to continue writing. sheesh*)
1- I got myself out of the hotel industry * I dunno if thats a good thing or bad* but I kinda miss being in the hotel industry. If only they can pay a eenie meenie bit more, plus not having to deal with turnover shifts - I am totally fine with it.
2- I got a terrible burn scar to add on to my fat legs.
3- I cant seem to save anymore when Im in this new job because apparently Im spending more than what Im supposed to. *NOT ON SHOPPING OR LUXURY STUFFS OK! just those normal transport & meal fees is enough to kill*
4- I still have not slim down.
5- I miss working in MM-MC with dada, fay, jess, siti, pong & etc and the occasionally smoking breaks with kylie and siti.
6- I bump into yb so coincidentally, but not able to even smile and say a hi.

Okay okay, let me start with the ups first then..
1- I got my driving license like finally!! *whipeee!*
2- Uncle low brought me to a nice place and gave a simple proposal. *haas*
3- I got a new job, learnt something new!
4- I got myself a prada wallet!
5- And the best thing is its FOC, because apparently they made a mistake and refund me the money. (which was supposed to be like this in the 1st place, as I had said I do not want the wallet anymore, but they still delivered to me)
6- I managed to save close to 5K in my bank account! (but hello, Ive spent it all away already. LOL - uncle low CANNOT see this!)
7- *let me go back to the 'downs' first before coming back.
8- I finally bump into yb so coincidentally, after dunno how many yrs of not being to meet and contact
9- OKAY THE MOST IMPORTANT ONE - I SAW XIAOZHU!! and eye contact for so long I feel like Im high on drugs. WUAHAHA!

Oook, its New Year Eve and I dun wanna crack my head thinking of what to write.
I heart you all, and I really mean it.
Happy New Year to all of you.

看见第一眼 - 心跳。
感觉 - 开心因为终于看到你了；心寒因为感觉却像陌生人

Maybe its just me who wants to say HELLO. Maybe its just me who wants to keep in touch. Maybe its just me who wants to stay close.

Hello, Im back to blogging again.. :)

Im utterly sorry for the lack of updates (if anybody's reading that is.)

Too lazy to on my laptop when I get home everyday and because my laptop is so mini, its such a chore to use it sometimes (my hands are big, you know you know?)

OKay, its xmas season, but the mood doesnt seem to get to me thou. Merry Xmas to you if I dun see u here any sooner. BUAHAHHA.

Anyhows, I got this very ugly burn scar 2 Sundays ago. =(

Please try not to be eating while you're reading this, cause the photos might pose some discomfort to some of you =

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I still try to make effort to make it look nice by adding some calm colours at the background! IM SUCHA ANGEL. HEEHEE

Yah, they said fail to plan means plan to fail.

but somehow it doesnt really apply to me ah!

my plans for holidays during nye and cny all landed down the drain. I DID PLANNED OKAY.

so moral of the story is .. even with planning, we plan to fail sometimes. YES.

Im still in my office. So quiet I can hear the crickets outside. Right now, its only the sound of me tapping on my keyboard and the mp3 playing. Yes, Ive finished my work, just waiting for Jing to end work to go home together. I think both of us had a tough day at work today. It was another same rotten week like last week. C'mon, when will our work and life start to get better? :(

As I was typing out this entry, alot of things flashed to my mind. Should I just let it go? Or 追究到底 again, not sure if the answer will be a truthful one also. FML seriously!

Anyway in case you didnt received my email to you..

I have changed my email address to:

azaleas.loh@gmail.com

Loves.

What if..

I did something wrong and found out something bad again? Are you the one that I can trust? Or I should believe what I saw?

Second time.. Im losing hope. Shall I initiate? Godamn.

Yah, you know I was talking about Bf Low ranting on about the money & marriage stuffs..

We were at the topic again just now.

I guess Im just not prepared for marriage now. Can you imagine the load differences I have to bear after marriage?

1) I have to move into a new house and stay with new people

2) I have to start doing house chores!!

3) I have to start wearing bra in the house

4) My lifestyle will have a dramatic change (I can foresee)

5) I have to support 2 families

Its not that I dun love him, I dunno how to explain my feelings right now.

He's having 2nd thoughts to whether Im the correct one also :(

Me: *for the dunno how many times* I feel like going holiday leh. You wanna go with me anot?

Him: *Irritated tone* No money la!

Me: Then I go myself can anot?

Him: I know you always say say only, but you know I always hear you talk about all these I very sian leh. DO YOU WANNA SAVE UP FOR MARRIAGE ANOT?

Me: *quiet tone* not really leh.

Him: Not that I dun love you, but Im starting to think if you're really my lifetime partner anot...

WHAT CAN I SAY?! So many problems going through my mind can! We already have so many differences about the wedding itself, whats more after marriage? HAI.

Omg, literally more than a month or so since my last update. Im wondering if there's anyone still reading this blog..

There's so much ways of complaining online nowadays that blogging seems to drift away from me. Shall I announce that Ive set up my twitter & 微博 account like finally? Yah lo, to keep myself updated of my friends. Yah, I cant live without my friends. *GRINS*

Did some 大扫除 on my blog too. Realised some friends dont update anymore, so decided to remove their pretty faces from here. They take up too much space.

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Its coming to a year end. Another year flies again. *looks up at the sky* Where am I getting myself into again? Same old questions running through the mind.. [boring..]

Bf Low says I should go for airstewardess instead of my current, since I always pester him to bring me on a holiday. Well, not that I cannot go myself (I dun mind), he forbids me thou. Im under his terrible monetary control.

1) To save up for marriage
2) To save up for rainy days
3) To save for a better life after marriage
and the list goes on..

He rants like an old ahpek, but i still adore him! :)

Sometimes I wonder ah, I save up so much hor, never get what I want also sian.
I save up - I cannot go holiday, I cannot do alot of shoppings, I cannot get a new flat, I cannot buy a car, I cannot *alot of things ah, I cannot rem* hahaha.
Life's sucha bore, don't you agree?

My job now pays more, but I feel more broke than before. I got to feed myself every lunch time and the stupid gantry at the train stations keep asking me to top up my ez-link, even thou I've just top up like last week. So in the end, I think I spend more than before lo! WHICH IS REAL BAD. *shake my head vigorously*
Did I also mention that my previous mobile subscriber send me a lawyer letter just because I have not finished paying up my outstandings? Thou Ive already terminated my line with them, Ive still been obediently paying them $50 every month. I dunno how my last bill with them comes up to $300plus. :( Anyway, the main thing is they asked me to pay for the legal costs as well. NABEH CB. WHY SHOULD I WHEN YOU ARE THE ONE WHO WANTS TO SEND ME THIS SHIT? Hai, anyway problem settled la. DaMn 1.

Okay, Im going home! See you guys soon! Loves.

The long awaited weekend that Ive been anticipating for, wasnt that great afterall. Firstly the nails session turn out to be a flop. Secondly, the bday celebrations din really turn out to be what Ive thought it to be. Maybe I was the one who expects too much. Hey afterall, its not my bday. Or perhaps I was getting too emo. FUCKIT.

Anyway today I did something that I haven been doing for a long time. After dinner with the rest and Boat Quay, I went over to Clarke Quay alone & roam about; the Central & the those lanterns display outside. Lovely. I felt it wasnt enough. I just walked around aimlessly, passing by Fort Canning Park, GPPH.. walked over to cityhall & esplanade, passed by those F1 tracks and initally wanted to sit down at a park alone, but getting too late and I dun see any people around. Ended up walking to Esplanade train station and took the train back to reality again. Its been awhile, since I really have all the time to myself, to emo alone. I felt that wasnt enough, I went for a jog after I reached home. It feels good to jog at night. And it helps to clear my head. Im feeling alot better now thank you.

Tomorrow is Sunday, Im staying at home. And so I decided to cook dinner for the 1st time. =) If Sam & Dajie is coming back for dinner..

Im just in no mood to do anything else. Can somebody please bring my laughter back to me?

After hearing all the good reviews about Milly's Nails online, me & yanz finally went today to have our nails done there. TOTAL DISAPPOINTMENT.

Service was not bad, but not good either. Mediocre.

1) They dun let you test the colour before you can decide if you really wanna take the colour.

2) The boss keep asking how long they need to do the nails, in front of the customer.

3) When scrubbing the feet (i was wearing a long dress), staff dun bother to help me roll up my dress and water keep splashing onto my dress.

4) Dun really offer advice on what colours are matching; they just wanna hurry with their job - get it over and done with

5) Too much gossiping while doing the nails - give bad impression to the customers.

Their overall skills are not that bad, basically its just the experience that we got and of course, the end results that I got sucks. I would never ever go back to them again.

See the ugly nails Ive got now. FUCK.

Happy birthday SY!! 爱你哦小七！

Wow, its been a long time. Hello friends!

Just changed to a new job last month. Happily surviving my 1 month, and still going strong :)
ice bosses, good environment, a load of fun & young ppl to work with.

Just a short intro to what the team is working on..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ix53aoGtgZ8&sns=fb

GO AND SEEEEE!

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生一个人的气，能生多久。
和一个人吵架，能吵多久。
累了。。

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One of those moodless, tiring & anxiety days

Sobs sobs, I need a hug.//

A man who abuses his wife

or

A man who is unfaithful

Which one would you choose?

两个人在一起为什么要分手？分了手为什么又要复合呢。。

我在想，之前两个人如果因为不合而分，那之后为什么又要复合呢？那如果在一起了，感觉还会像和以前一样吗？之前的问题还会在吗？

你能忘记他之前和他在一起的女/男朋友，之前他们在一起愉快的日子，他和她的回忆，他们的一切一切，他们之前所发生的所有事情。

一个人的爱又能爱到哪里？一个人的爱又值多少？

这样子的爱情好可怕哦。。。

Has anybody wondered where do all the presents the fans gave to their idols go to?

I see fans 大费周章 doing things for their idols, decorating banners, designing scrap books, writing 'love' letters etc..

MY GOD. Do you think your idol will remember who you are and keep your presents?

Do you think by writing letters to him, telling how pitiful you are, because someone close just passed away and that he is the strength for you to carry on - he will be touched? HELLOOOO, wake up! How many fans they have and if everyone (okay, maybe just 1/3 of them) also do the same things, SERIOUSLY WHO CAN BE BOTHERED?

All efforts will only go to waste. STOP WASTING TIME EVERYBODY!

Plus a smile this time；这次多了一个微笑。。

The title says it all. Brightens up my moody day-before & morning. I thought I might be dissappointed after the previous eye contact (you know how ppl expect more everytime?), so I wasnt looking forward to much this time. But I got the chance (credits to DM Marilyn =p) to escort. Hehhehheh.

Okay la anyway, enough of him, if you know who Im talking about. I was complaining to Fay that I dont have the chance to do these anymore. To see those red shoes, to see his back view, to ransack his room after he c/o (lol!) and to see the shades that let me penetrate through his eyes to have eye contact. WUAHAHHA!

I mean im kind of sad to leave the hotel industry after so long lo. SOBS SOBS.

Managed to only catch a glimpse of his backview, his usual baggy jeans & his ultra striking red shoes. My love...

Yesterday I discovered something bad. A truth that hurts. The thing that hurts is the lying. Sobs

Seriously, whats with the mysterious porn case going around at my house recently. For those of you who know, I bet u will still remember the case of the mysterious pornography CD found in my laptop few years ago. -_-"

Well, recently my sister found some in her recycle bin too! WTH~? We dun really care that whoever is watching those, but what we are curious about who exactly is the person!! I think we must install CCTV in our house. Hehhehheh/..

Oh yeah, my resignation finally got approved. But yet today as I was walking along my 21st level corridor, I never thought that I would miss this place. I din realise that I would miss being in the hotel line. ;(

But I think more importantly, its the guests that I would miss and of course, the celebrities guests. HEHEHE. ESPECIALLY THE ONE & ONLY WHO STAYED IN #2023. =P

New hair colour tomorrow! Yeahpie!

I din managed to go for my jog today :(

left the hotel at 7plus, feeling so confused and tired. but my decision wun be swayed.

finally got my bracelet fixed. thank god. love it max. subway cost a bomb as usual, but managed to save for the kbox at only 8moolahs! sort of balance it out. hahaha.

oh yesh! i drove today. 1st time after my license. just a detour around the carpark. *glees!

went through my bank account and realised i forgot to transfer my savings over this month. happily still thought ive left alot to spend. nabeh cheebye. *moodswing

but its okay, im another step closer to my dream. :))

p/s. 罗嫂's gonna be in town again! (erhem)

Love my new skin! Got a new job, and I cant wait. Finally something different from what Ive been doing all along. All geared up for a new change. Im quite looking forward to it though. =) One thing is.. Ive not tendered my resignation yet. Hahahha! Hopefully no preachings etc. I cant stand.

Been planning for my year end trip and CNY trip (secretly). Bf Low confirmed wont allow me to go twice, but I dun intend to let him know so soon. Buahahha, wait till Ive save up enough, so I'll have a reason to stand up for myself. =p

Ohohoh, all those plannings are making me crazy. Hates to plan, but at the same time, Im excited.

Oh yeah, so addicted to online shopping (again) this month, cause Ive enough to spare! Glees* Gonna meet up with ling & sista for some shoppings before GSS ends. Another meet up with serene for our birthdays which are waaayy too long before. (We did meet up for a simple dinner and gossipping session last week though) Oh god, I haven been spending this GSS - so not economically friendly. We need to spend to boost the economy! :))

Schedule for this week - Jogging (OH YES, Ive been good. Ive been working out regularly) on wednesday after work, picnic (tentatively - Im making topshell salad & pasta salad!!) on thursday & hair colouring on friday! Loves 5day work week.

昨晚送达达回去了。还真有点舍不得。大家都哭红了眼。一年也就这样一转眼就过了。好快哦。

We had our fair share of laughter & tears during this one year. Its amazing how such bonds are created over the months. :))

As time goes by, we became closer. Basically, we bitched and talked about everything under the sun. From gossiping about the bitches at work to role plays during sex, I really enjoyed every moment.

达达，这一年来你应该也学了很多东西吧。记得学以致用哦！（我会用成语嘞，而且我也觉得我认识了很多繁体字）记得在朋友面前炫耀一下你的英文，就算你说错了，也没人懂吧！哈哈。也不要忘了去唱 K 时，记得唱那首我教你的英文歌！

记得要常联络，麦懒惰！如果我和菲芸要找人靠夭时，铁定不会忘记你。

台湾见咯。希望未来的我们，还是好朋友。:))

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Anymore second in here, I feel that I one step closer to there. Ive been cursing and swearing since my work starts at 3pm. All the way till 11pm, I can literally hear myself repeating non-stop cheebyes and fucks. Im so exhausted by the time I ended work. My mind & my body is worn out. Im glad today had ended.

我发现，一个relationship不能单单靠爱情和FEEL来维持。现实外在的因素实在太多了。:(

sometimes, 等待的可能已经到来，但是它真的是我们想要得吗？

We might be waiting for the sake of not wanting to lose something, but in the end, is it really something that we want and have been waiting for?

看完了败犬，我一直在思考这个问题。。

最近心情超不好，就连回家找到新的路线也会快乐。。

Im all geared up for my new resolution! Gotten all my stuffs! Now its just waiting for the right time & a companion.. (which is the hardest thing since im feeling lazy most of the time.... teeheehee)

Birthday just passed. Then today I realised this year was one without cakes & songs! I am extremely fine with it thou =) Thank you to all darlings who had wished me, thru text or FB. Much appreciated! It hearts to see people whom you dun think will wish you, wished you. I smiled to myself while reading through messages. Its really heartwarming. And thanks for the presents too. Im a year older, but a year wiser too (I hope!). Honestly, I cant wait to hit the late twenties! :))

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真没想到，原来我也会像十来岁的少女，狂迷明星，偶像。说出来还真有点不好意思嘞!

Friends around me have moved on to things like CNN news, forex exchange, shares, biohealth etc etc. Im all alone AGAIN. But Im used to it, and Im feeling okay abt it. Just sometimes feel abit ashamed. SOBS. Seriously, what have I learnt from the past 23years or the 3 social years that Ive been working? *shakes head* I want MAMA.

Happy Mama's Day~!!

Excited abt the upcoming resolution Ive set for myself. :) Certainly hopes its not gonna be another 三分钟热度 again! Shall blog more in the next entry after Ive gotten my stuffs tomorrow to prepare myself for the 大改革！

Oh yeah, I finally come to realise & accept that people dun wait for you. Things changes, people move on. Nobody is gonna be by your side & wait for you to catch up with them. After so long, Im still stuck in the same spot. I guess friends around me gonna feel that I haven change after so long. Sobs.

My fingers itch again.//

Ive been wanting to blog more lately, things have been going on in my head on what to blog. But each time I reached home & on my lappy, my mind went blank. =//

Been on morning shifts for so long I cant rem. I miss sleeping in with the sun shining on my face. I miss going after all those taiwanese dramas till late at night. I miss supper times with friends and bf low. All I can say is Im exhausted. Boohoohoo.

I wanna head down to the gym soon. I wanna get rid of my flappy arms that makes me feel like a butterfly when I wave. I wanna get rid of those thunderous elephant thighs that rub against each other when I walk. (Hahaha) And I wanna get rid of the big tummy that I can do belly dancing with. But before that, I need to buy a pair of track shoes first! =p

I wonder when is Iphone 4G coming out. Im waiting for the price of the others to drop so I can buy! Hehhehheh. It doesnt matter that Im not the up-to-date one. I dun care anyway. Bf Low promise me a overseas trip this year! To where, we have not decide yet. Hopefully its gonna be fun! Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah. Its been sooooo long since I last went on a trip! *glees

You know Ive always envy girls who dun have to draw their eyebrows when they makeup. It so saves alot of time! My brows are giving me problems every morning, and now I dun draw them anymore. Ive cut my fringe! Not very short but at least doesnt expose alot of my brows! TIRED AH.//

Ok la ok la. I seriously dunno what to write in here anymore. Anyw, good luck to SY who will be starting her job tomorrow!

Good luck to Serene in finding a better one!

Happy birthday to May Chua & Angeline Ang - my primary sch best friends! ( I know your birthday is tomorrow!)

------Ciaos.//

Wanna blog about what happened today but I dunno how to start. Not exactly the worst that Ive been through, but all adding up just makes me dejected & I hate it.

Retail therapy doesnt seem to help. Went shopping alone after dinner and I spent close to a hundred bucks. I did not feel any happier. Its my rest day tomorrow & sat, and Im not feeling any happier. I have companies calling me up for interviews, but Im not feeling happy either! Sth is wrong with me I think.

My hair is in a mess.

My dark circles are getting darker.

My pimples are popping out.

My teeth are getting yellow.

My tummy is getting bigger.

My thighs are becoming elephanthy.

My fingers & toes are getting dry.

I wanna have a happy birthday =(

不该说的话也说了，不该听的也听了。尽然事情都到了这个地步，与其逃避躲躲藏藏，为何就不能打开彼此的心而谈一谈呢？一场无头蓄，没终点的游戏，能玩到什么时候呢？

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每一次嘴里都说不会在部落格提起你，可是当我知道你有心事或晚上睡不着时，总是会想到你。不知觉的，又在部落格上提起你了。。对于一个这么热爱睡觉，注重睡眠匆足的你，怎么可能会睡不着觉呢？希望你一切都顺利，我的顾人怨家伙 (=

I am back! *jump around like a monkey happily* 有想我吗?!

I am totally glued to sugoideas/pps recently. Ya lah, I know Im abit slow but doesnt matter. Im enjoying so much of the 台湾偶像剧! Please tell me that I am able to watch sugo on Iphone, pul-leazeee!

Been searching around for a new job. I might have said this a million times but I regretted giving up on the job offer! Afterall its sth that Ive always been yearning for. And I really really regret. Somebody please kill me.!

最近在看恶魔在身边。知道知道这戏超久了！可是最近自从看了斗牛要不要，就超想追看贺军翔的每一部戏！简直太帅了！有时我会觉得我已经超龄了，不能再迷偶像之类。可是每个女人心中都有一段长不大的过去吧？

剧中说到。。

“ 感情是不讲条件，不问理由的。就算全天下的人都告诉我不应该喜欢你，我还是会不顾一切的爱上你。我想这就是真爱吧。”

It touched my heart for some reason. Im so hooked on this show, especially Jerry Yan & Ella.

Saw their behind-the-scenes where J specially came to work in the morning when he is supposed to start his scene in the evening, just because he wants to celebrate E's birthday.

My heart just melts at some scenes and I can literally feel like I am in the situation itself. Dada says I 入戏太深。But I feel that Im more attached to J rather than the show la. Hahha. He is so damn bloody handsome and feels so fit! His smile & some of his actions remind me of someone dear. Ooooh. =(

I can never understand..

.. why some people know nothing about time management.

If you know you have to reach home or meet ur friends at a specified time, then you should have work your time backwards and be punctual! I cannot understand how some people can be late for a few hours or whatnots, and then start to rush everyone around them.

I am okay if you are late for 10mins or so, but 30mins or more? What the hell? Or if you know you got to be home at a specified time, shouldnt you depart earlier?

I encountered guests who are rushing to the airport, or are late for their flight, and then expect us to rush with them too. Nabeh, if you have woke up earlier, pack ur lugguages first, then you dun need to rush through the checkout process and make us rush with u too right!

Im not saying that Im a perfectionist who was nv late before. But it just pissed me off that some people just dun have the sense of urgency.

Hello again.. It feels shiok to relax, to have one whole day to yourself,

to recharge after dunno how many days of work. (=

I passed. This pass doesnt really mean much to me though, because I feel that I am supposed to fail.! Thank god I had a very lenient tester. Anyhows, thank you to all who gave me encouragement to carry on those tedious driving lessons and of course, Francis, my driving instructor. (=

Please contact me if you wanna learn private driving in Ubi. I really highly recommend him. =))

All thanks to facebook, I realised a couple of my friends have been engaged, married and some with babies recently! Not that Im upset that I was not invited, cause we nv really contact anyways. But I feel weird. People around my age are going into another stage while Im still hanging in the air, 5yrs ago & now 5yrs later. What on earth have I been doing? It actually came as a wake up call for me... Its time for me to start planning my life. Well oh well, as it goes.. start planning la. But so far as Im still typing this entry, no plan is hatching in my head yet. YAH, Im still stagnant. I guess a leopard can never change its spots yea? I have friends who are ever learning new stuffs as they dun wanna get behind in the society or they dun wanna die stupidly. Are they referring to me? =//

I actually wanted to post up the pics I found of them moving on to another stage, but Im not sure if I can. You know, nowadays all these net laws and what nots la.. =[

Anyway, serene.. Do you still rem Jimmy Gang? Lol, yea yea, THAT GUY. He's married! Recently if Im not wrong. =p

Okay la, anyhow back to my monotonous lifey. I swear I was going to put on at least 3kg yesterday. For dunno how long in my life, yesterday I had a full proper 3meals! Yum Cha Dimsum breakfast, followed by Auntie AhPheng CNY lunch gathering at her house & then Ren Ri party dinner with Boyf. Low at Yishun. I tell you, no matter how many sachets of Fruity Lite I drink now also no use la! =\

Oh yeah, talking about Fruity Lite, quite nice though. If you dunno what Im talking about, this is the one...

Ling & I bought one box each last week while we were browsing at Watsons Store. Basically you can buy it anywhere la, and most importantly, it is at a damn affordable price la! Just $6.95 compared to other slimming drinks! But of course, this is not really a slimming drink la, it just clear the toxins in the body and help in digestion. BUT it is as good as a slimming drink also la! Go google up Fruity Lite and find the benefits in their website! Im too lazy to write all here (=

Good byes! OH YEAH, happy belated birthdays to all. Its ren ri yesterday =p

Came across this.. Any differences?

One yr ago...


One yr later...

Its CNY Day 2. I woke up close to noon and slack all the way until now. Literally slack all the way. Just ordered KFC Delivery for dinner, waiting for it to come. Didnt have a proper meal for the whole day. Well, I had some beehoon in the late afternoon for my first meal, so I dunno is that considered my brunch or dinner? After that, I just hide in my room and watch 就想赖着你till about 8pm before I resurfaced and start to behave like a human being.

Was supposed to meet Mr. Low for movie but apparently most of the shows are all full. Aiya, expected la. Then he suggested to go River Hongbao but I refused cause I know he didnt feel like going at all. And I dun want him to force himself to do things he dun like to do. Whats the point of going, just for the sake of me wanting to go badly? HAI, Im sorry. Im in a terribly foul mood. I dunno what Im rumbling about. I really hate CNY this year. I wanna save up and go overseas next year during CNY. I can go alone, I dun care. I just dun wanna stay here and see the people.

Is it me or what that Im feeling lost and tired in the relationship? I hope this is just a passing phase. I had a bad dream on CNY 1 but I didnt tell him because he said he doesnt want to hear bad stuffs on CNY. Can you imagine how hurt I felt? I kept in myself and I could somehow feel the dream coming true. Its been rather cold these few days but I really dun have the heart to keep the fire alive and burning. Blame me for not making enough effort. I hope all these will pass quickly.

Sth's wrong with my right leg I can feel. I used to feel pain in my right knee, now it somehow has got to the whole leg. Whenever Im lying down or resting my feet on the ground, there is this kind of sour pain in the right leg, like as though I just finished a marathon. No matter which position I changed, it just feels uncomfortable. You know sometimes when you just changed your sitting position or etc, your whole body will feel better. But this doesnt seem to be the case. And its affecting my sleep at night! I had to keep tossing and turning to find a good position for my legs but doesnt seem to help at all.

You know I somehow got irritated by her, and I decided OK, it was the final call. She really made me tulan and angry that I dunno whether should I still continue to confide and believe in her or continue my isolation from her. The things she said and the things she did just doesnt tally, and Im starting to wonder where has the previous her gone to? But because we are relatives, I cant do a single shit but just to pretend that I dun give a damn. Fuck.

Happy CNY. But not a happy one for me lo! In fact, I had the most bori-est (is that such a word?) cny outta my entire 20+ life.

I think I look like a porn star. LOL.

12th Feb.Clarke Quay Golden Cafe.Fullerton Area.Timbre Empress Place.

Bday Girl with her Beloved.

Without me ]=...

She always insisted on taking without flash. THE RESULTS. -_-"

I insisted on the flash when its my turn. =p SEE SO MUCH BETTER?

Me in my favourite place with my favourite drink!

Before the celebration..

Us with my newly bought thongs!

Ling & her peas eyes. =p

Angela..

Ling..

Thyself..

Full house.Full attendance

2145H.Windy Night.

Happy 3yrs minus 6mths anniversary to Me & Boyf. Low!

Here I am, lying down on my bed blogging. Its been some time since my last post. And I got quite surprised that theres other bloggers out there who reads my blog and comment!

Ive been wanting to write long time ago, but no time. Everyday after work, its just head back to home and rest. Dun even feel like switching on my lappy and stare into the computer screen. Ive been on morning shifts for the past 2 weeks, 3 if you include this wk! Kinda drained out. Lethargic & exhausted. CNY in less than a week's time. Meeting ling tml to do our nails. I feel like doing acrylic nails! But work doesnt permit. ZZzzz =(

Over the weekends, we celebrated Baby Chloe's 1st bday.

The Agar2 cake is yummy yummy!

Trying to promote Chloe's banner while every1 is busy decorating..

A very happy baby with her yi2.

Grandpa, grandma & granddaughter!

Baby Chloe & Biao Yi..

Lalala. Sistas!

Uncle Low & Auntie Loh (=

My oh-so-handsome Mr. Low *awwww*

Mr. Low is so lag! Our 五连拍..

SEE? I dunno why he show 1 twice.. Blur Cock.

Fishball & Watermelon..

OohOoh! I loveee this pic!

Dasam with Girlf Gillian..




Baby bambi..!


Chloe: What is papa doing?



Chloe; Oh, I think I know how to do also!!


Act Sweet Pinky Happy Family..



A very act sweet mother.





Busy packing the goodies bags the night before.. But always ready for camera!

Pek-Gong with Imitation Pikachu