Its CNY Day 2. I woke up close to noon and slack all the way until now. Literally slack all the way. Just ordered KFC Delivery for dinner, waiting for it to come. Didnt have a proper meal for the whole day. Well, I had some beehoon in the late afternoon for my first meal, so I dunno is that considered my brunch or dinner? After that, I just hide in my room and watch 就想赖着你till about 8pm before I resurfaced and start to behave like a human being.

Was supposed to meet Mr. Low for movie but apparently most of the shows are all full. Aiya, expected la. Then he suggested to go River Hongbao but I refused cause I know he didnt feel like going at all. And I dun want him to force himself to do things he dun like to do. Whats the point of going, just for the sake of me wanting to go badly? HAI, Im sorry. Im in a terribly foul mood. I dunno what Im rumbling about. I really hate CNY this year. I wanna save up and go overseas next year during CNY. I can go alone, I dun care. I just dun wanna stay here and see the people.

Is it me or what that Im feeling lost and tired in the relationship? I hope this is just a passing phase. I had a bad dream on CNY 1 but I didnt tell him because he said he doesnt want to hear bad stuffs on CNY. Can you imagine how hurt I felt? I kept in myself and I could somehow feel the dream coming true. Its been rather cold these few days but I really dun have the heart to keep the fire alive and burning. Blame me for not making enough effort. I hope all these will pass quickly.

Sth's wrong with my right leg I can feel. I used to feel pain in my right knee, now it somehow has got to the whole leg. Whenever Im lying down or resting my feet on the ground, there is this kind of sour pain in the right leg, like as though I just finished a marathon. No matter which position I changed, it just feels uncomfortable. You know sometimes when you just changed your sitting position or etc, your whole body will feel better. But this doesnt seem to be the case. And its affecting my sleep at night! I had to keep tossing and turning to find a good position for my legs but doesnt seem to help at all.

You know I somehow got irritated by her, and I decided OK, it was the final call. She really made me tulan and angry that I dunno whether should I still continue to confide and believe in her or continue my isolation from her. The things she said and the things she did just doesnt tally, and Im starting to wonder where has the previous her gone to? But because we are relatives, I cant do a single shit but just to pretend that I dun give a damn. Fuck.