i promised ryan i'll not shed any more tears in 2009.

and i broke my promise yesterday night - 4th Jan 2009.

i hate myself for all these.

the thing that ive feared all along

came true.

and i really had did my best to minimise the hurt inflicted.

but ultimately, i still hurt you.

im really sorry.

theres nothing i can do or say but to apologise.

im sorry this have to be the way to start your new year.

im sorry for making your nightmare came true.

im sorry you have to go through all these shits again.

im sorry im sorry im really sorry.