its terrible. i feel terrible, miserable and horrible.

my messy tots are back to haunt me again.

i feel like a zombie inside me. everything inside has died.

i really dun wanna feel like this. i wanna be happy and live my dreams.

but why am i still feeling this way after one month?

ive been trying to keep myself busy to stop thinking, to not have any spare time to have other thoughts. i feel like just collapsing one day and just die like tt. I WANNA DIE.

my heart really hurts/.