The meaning of CNY

Loves the meaning that the video is trying to convey, even though its just a simple Pepsi & Lays advert. Especially with the cast. *GLEAMS*

All I want for Christmas is

& 

and thats enough. HEHEHEHE ♥

In the mood of blogging, even though I still have 101 things pending to do before I go on leave. :(

Anyway, check out these cute boys & hot hunks..

Gosh, see their bodies? Super hearts the second last one. Hehehe

海枯石爛

或许明天世界真的崩溃

海洋一望无际

有一天也慢慢蒸发了

直到天空出现那道光线

深深穿透我的心

那种坚定的默契

成为我心底最真实的动力

一辈子的誓言

也是我爱你的一个见证


Loving the tune, loving the lyrics. Love the music

我。。還是要幸福

Does anyone have the same feeling as me, when listening to this song?

Goosebumps and then tears in the eyes. 

Oh Hebe, why do you always sing with such deep emotions that pierce straight into people's hearts.

有沒有

Not a fan of BY2, but their new song 让我打开眼界。

Love the new album layout, their new look especially the eye makeup and their dressing. All matches nicely to the 60s theme. Love it. 

The Past & The Present

Yesterday I thought back of the old times in Singapore and this modern city that we are living in now. I realized that Singapore might not be such a conducive place to live in anymore. It seems that this small red dot is becoming overpopulated and nothing positive is being done to improve the living condition. Whats the worse thing? Foreigners invading this land and causing crowds. 

I dont remember having such problems when I was younger. I dont remember the trains having breakdowns and problems every now & then. I dont remember walking on the streets, seeing one foreigner out of 5. I dont remember theres conflicts against china people, or india people, the most Ive heard of is the minor racial jokes. 

But recently, it feels like the above points Ive mentioned are all normal. People can be sued in court just because the curry that they cooked, the smell is too strong. Working people are all late because trains always break down at the 'correct' timing. There's new trains, new mrt lines but the transport system nv seems to get better. WHY? And yet the fares are always increasing. 

Getting sick of the environment here. Government are just bringing in foreign talents, leaving the locals here to work under them and feel despised. LOW MORAL. 

Whats gonna happened to the future generations? I dont even want to think about it.

 

Im not a designer

Designed and finally printed out the invitation cards. Gonna collect it on sat. I hope you guys will find it nice. I'm not a designer. :D

Counting Down..

Left with 2 more months to the big day. Still not feeling the hype yet, but soon I hope!

Getting busier nearing to the date, almost all weekends are spent doing preparations. Trying to diy most of the items myself, because they will all end up as memories in future. And feeling irritated whenever people keep commenting that we are wasting time & effort. *rolled & flipped my eyes

Guest Book.. checked

Ang Bao Box.. not yet

Sisters' Wrist Corsages.. not yet

Sisters' dresses.. checked

Brothers' attire.. not yet

Wedding Bands.. checked

Guo Da Li items.. not yet

New bed.. checked

All other furniture in room.. not yet

Invitation cards.. not yet

Programme List..not yet

Emcee script.. checked

Gowns.. not yet

Album.. not yet

Songs List.. not yet

Food tasting.. checked

Wedding Favours.. checked

Mini honeymoon schedule.. not yet

Guest List.. checked

Seating Arrangment.. not yet

and the list goes on...

Oh btw, should I have a getaway to Bintan after my customary since there's free accommodation thrown in for us as part of our package. Or should I just go to Conrad/Swissotel Merchant for a night's stay?

Lost touch.Lost contact

We lost contact again suddenly and I'm thinking if it's me again.

Fades.. Not

At night I prayed, that soon your face will fade away..

Which one?

分不清剧情承诺永恒或迷惑 

Did you ever did something and regret? Or did you ever not did something and regret?

Which one is more worse?

Out of comfort zone - SOON-

Im feeling very unmotivated at work today. Uncertainty starts kicking in and further ruined my mood. I start to think: "How long can I stay in this job? I know I dun wanna waste time working in this position, but where can I head to?"
And as he said: this is only a job, not a career yet. So what deems a career? And will I have one soon?
Well, despite the fact that Im feeling the rush to get out of this JOB and move on, the wedding is holding me back. I CANT LEAVE NOW. Im gonna have lotsa bills to clear, lotsa stuffs to buy, I cant go jobless. And what? When I send in my CV, I have to fight with all those uni grads for a place in the industry. sobs. And I dun even know what industry I wan at this point. SIGHS

Yes, did thought of going back to hotel again, but the shift work is tiring. Thought of applying for airline as well, but my age.. :(
Thought of going overseas to work, but how to start? So many question marks.

Boss is treating me good, I have to admit. Its fun working here, but I just dun see the opportunity growth here. I mean I can venture into the production side la, but just no interest in all these animation and films, you know? Theres very few politics here, and everyone just get along with everyone. But pte ltd ley - no staff benefits and whatnots. Dead town generally interms of the benefits. :(

I need to find out my strength and stop idling around waiting for money to drop from the sky.
Aza aza fighting.

PS/ and yea, I need a better paying job so I can get a better loan from the stupid HDB. EDWIN LOW IS NOT CONTRIBUTING LO! >.<

其實。。。

其實我想嫁的人是你，不是你的家人。

Date Meeee

Haven been to a late night movie in town for so long.
Can I go with you soon? :(
Or can anyone just date me out on Thurs for a nice late night movie or chilling session since Friday I only start work in the afternoon?!!
:D

只是太愛你

Ive been hearing this song over the FM for the past 1 week.
I love the melody, I love the singer and most of all, I love the lyrics.
[the MV sucks though. not really v appealing =p]

這是一個老掉牙的愛情故事，某君愛上某君，二人有緣在一起，曾經甜蜜無限，也不是沒試過風風雨雨。以為經歷過這麼多，大家往後會好好愛下去。
卻不知從何時開始，一方的愛變成另一方的枷鎖，最後越愛越怕，逼不得以唯有放手讓你好過。
我們常說太愛一個人不好，其實最錯，或者是不懂愛自己，如果學會對自己好一點、自私一點，或可讓大家都有喘息的­空間吧？

I bite too..

你身边有沒有一个喜欢咬人的女生？
她喜欢在你手臂上使劲的咬一口 然后问你痛不痛。
看到你手臂上的牙齿印东一个坑西一个坑 她又会把你的手拿过去亲几口 这是她对你专属的烙印。但终会有那么一天 你会甩开她的手 说她煩。
喜欢咬人的女生都缺乏安全感
如果你身边有一个喜欢咬人的女生 请疼她多一点

She likes to bite hard on your arm and ask you if it hurts.
When she saw the teethmarks, she'll pat and kiss your arm.
But there's gonna be one day.. when you had enough and pushed her away.
But did you know..
Girls who bite, they are just feeling insecure.
If you have a girl who bites you on your arm, love her more.

Changed

Yup, changed my blog address, as I feel its getting abit too personal here, with all the rantings and unhappiness.
Changed the blog title to remind myself to be contented too.
I really wanna be happy, happy just being myself, happy being with you.

SOS

They say I might be suffering from pre-marital withdrawal symptoms. I think it could be due to my negativity abt life as well. So when uncertainty plus negativity comes in together at this stage of life, PMS appear. Sigh. Sometimes really have enough of this kind of life, but just dunno how to make it better.

Its not that I wanna feel this way, not that I wanna feel insecure, not that I wanna be sensitive. But tell me how to feel indifferent when more and more of my friends are getting this 小三 thingy appearing in their relationship. Plus ure not making it better by frequenting those places till wee morning. U dun used to do that before.

I'm feeling pretty weird these few days. Really feel like in a state of isolation, not wanting to talk to anybody. I wish that I can have a private place where I can go back to, with nobody to disturb me. I even thought of renting a place outside to stay alone.

Hai, I need a million to get away.

還有眼淚就好..

难道爱情虚有其表
还是太认真才输掉..
♥ ♥

Looking abit forward to the 'promise'

有时候

Sometimes I think. Is it okay to contact you? I dunno about you, but I dont wanna lose contact with you.

A Wrong Start

Maybe it was wrong to get back together.
Maybe it was even wrong to accept his proposal.

Maybe we shouldnt even be together. What do you think?

So whats gonna happened when the bride & groom to be are both having pre-marriage freakout? o.O

lets just promise to be with each other till everything is over.
*i promise

Self-deceived? Or self-contented?

原來每個人都只想聽到一個可以讓自己說服的理由，
就算是騙你的一句謊言。

So, everyone just need to hear a reason, even if it's just a lie to cover up.


If everything is all about fate & destiny, why are we struggling so hard to love someone, & fearing all those lingering devotion.
如果一切靠缘份
何必痴心爱着一个人
最怕藕断丝连 难舍难分

The 'I Do'

Feeling down and moody. Getting lost in my directions of life.
If only I had been firmer in my decision few months back, perhaps I'll not feel swayed now.

Wedding preparations are in the midst already, left with 6 more months before the big day, I have to admit Im having cold feet now. Is it still too late to back out from all these? Afterall, this is a major important decision of my life. But then again, we'll never know until we try right?

怕安静

One of the better songs in his new album 独一无二　Only You - launched on 18 Feb.
Love how the song touched deep down into my heart.

It's actually talking abt how much he miss this girl, who passed away.

我又帮自己 订了场电影
结果坐在 广场找你背影
人来了又去 我好怀念迟到有人会发脾气

手机有收讯 简讯不是你
打开了 更让人失望到底
你走就走吧 干麻留下每天没看完的韩剧
我想我真的怕安静 少了你吵我不开心
回家第一个开机 掩盖所有的安静
说不定我能够撑过去
我想我真的怕安静 连洗澡都要戴耳机
打电动声东击西 一停我又怕想起
念我和爱我的人 我没珍惜
你爱的歌手 又出了专辑
一样好听 可是特别痛心
歌词每一句 根本办不到还硬劝我要放弃
把闹钟 设不停 或许我 会清醒
我想等下去可惜爱不能靠毅力
要是我 挽回你 你一定 更伤心
爱一个人不一定要永远在一起
真的怕安静 不想去也硬要出去
逛闹区到KTV 点你必点的歌曲
怎麽合唱的人不是你
原来我这麽怕安静 是怕再也听不到你
在厨房大声唱歌 在沙发硬跟我挤
让我终於晓得 我有多爱你
你已不在 这里

You know sometimes, how much we miss one person: -
when our phone rings, we always rush to see but end up being disappointed.
when we always sing the same song, but now it became just me singing alone.

so afraid of the loneliness and the misses:
that I had to on the tele at its highest volume the first thing when Im home;
that I had to wear earphones to bathe

I hope you enjoy this song as much as I do, because just by reading the lyrics - I fell in love with the song.

Today is..

the last day of May - the month of so much love and joy and holidays *pouts :(

Oh, so much love and joy not because its my birthday, but it just feels like so many events going on..

1st - Labour day aka HOLIDAY! *gleems
2nd - PH in lieu *double gleems cause no monday blues!
7th - Impromptu FOC Jolin's MYSELF concert *dance around
9th - Long weekend due to GE Voting Day - get an extra day off!
14th - Long-awaited-and-finally-here 小猪老公's encore concert *prance around in joy
15th - Heartwarming steamboat + bday celebration at yx house
16th - Nothing in particular, took leave to enjoy the long weekend because..
17th - MY BIRTHDAY = VESAK DAY = PUBLIC HOLIDAY!! *oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah*
20th - Time off from work *yeah!* to go down bridal boutique to try for photoshoot gowns

Okay, and that marks the end of May, the end of long holidays, the end of festive mood.

June will be here when we open our eyes tomorrow, and its already the 2nd half of the year. So, what have you been doing for the 1st half of 2011?! As usual, Im lazing around, fantasizing to get a windfall and whatnots. Heehehe.
Oh btw, to help me in my GSS shopping next month, Ive started working part time in MM/MC during the weekends. Sibeh tired can. But feels good to be back there. =)

Its photoshoot session next month le, and I guess after that, there will be more wedding stuffs to be busy with. Pray that everything will go smooth smooth please.
Btw, we balloted for Anchorvale Cove last month, got a queue number but its so far away! 427 outta 463 units. Chinese quota 391. By the time its my turn, dun even know if theres units available for us. But like that also good, cause I dun wanna reject again due to lousy units. Might as well no more quota for the Chinese, then at least I wont get penalized for rejecting. Its my 2nd time already, will kena blacklisted you know! :(

Okay, I gotta go back to work. Keep getting distracted at work, and cant seem to finish my stuffs. Bye!

Random Updates

Just updated the shopping sites and alil of the side gadgets. :o)
oh so personal and i like!

Wedding on the rocks

Okay, so I heard theres another 小三 story again.
This time, into a married couple, who just gave birth to a baby.

I dun really know this couple for a long time, not the best friend types. But good enough to be friends, who share some common interests. I encouraged her to go for the divorce, not that I am 'pai xim' to ask her to do this, but whats the probability that the guy will do this to her again after this one? 99.9% right? NEVER LET A GUY GO LOOSE, IF NOT WE WILL LOSE THEM FOREVER. I dun believe in craps like he will turn over a new leaf and changed for the family. Guys think with their dicks, when its itchy, its itchy. :(

You know, hearing all these stories dun make me feel good abt marriage, abt myself. We always pinpoint at the guys who have extra marital affairs, how abt girls who fall in love with guys who are attached, or even married? They are the normal ones we see on the streets, the ones we might even have interaction with. So what makes us (or rather, me?) different from them? We fall in love with guys who are attached too. Perhaps its just that we din dare to make that extra move which they did.

Anyway back to this slutty 小三 story. Lets call my friend Y and her hubby W. Together for 9 years already, from school times to marriage. Just gave birth few months ago.
Y found out abt his affair during pregnancy (like, really what a time?!!!). Devastated and cried throughout the whole pregnancy. At that time when I was with her, I still thought it was because she was going through emo period during pregnancy. :(
W said he love her, the 小三. KNNCCB.
Okay, wanna get divorce but somehow in the end, I dunno why nv.
Now, that 小三 keep telling Y on FB that W dun love her anymore, and say all sorts of nasty things that a slut will says. Y cant tolerate, and thinking of divorce now, but very confused cause of the baby, and W is hesitating on the divorce. HELLO, 你这负心汉，在外面有女人，还犹豫要不要离婚？NO, you cannot have the best of both worlds. CANNOT.

Hai, tell me why. BITCHES exist in this world? We were once so young and innocent, why did we all walk differents ways in life? :(

So I decided, I dun wanna be a bitch too.

我最親愛的

Part of the lyrics says..
因為中間空白的時光
如果還能分享
也是一種浪漫
關係雖然不再一樣
關心卻怎麼能說斷就斷

another job well done by ahmei. <3
lyrics = 林夕 ； melody = Russell Harris

我在想

.. Is there anyone out there who is truly happy that Im getting married?

7 May..

is a day where things are going to change.

Today is polling day. This is it! The day when everyone finally has the say, the day when the government is scared of the people, the day when citizens are NO 1.

Attended the WP rally on Thurs. My first time. I guess it was a major experience. Actually was just there to soak in the atmosphere, and wow, it was really HIGH. Everybody was like 造反了,疯了! I guess this is the only time whereby people like us can really oppose the government and do the things we nv dare to in the past. Naise, eye opener for me..

Today is also the day where 范范&黑人终于要终成眷属 after a good TEN years. 10years, imagine that, how many 10years do we have in a life? And Im really happy for them. Im amazed at how much 黑人 love her, Im amazed how can 黑人 still love her with all his heart after TEN years, Im amazed how they can still behave like as though they were like lovebirds who just got together. Their love for each other, earned my respect and blessings.

祝你们开心幸福哦 :)

最重要的決定

Exactly 7 more months down..

Into a new chapter of my life. One that all girls yearn for so much when we were young & innocent. Im now looking at it, not with the same anticipation that I had when I was still a young girl. Im not shunning it away of course, its afterall.. a decision that Ive made.

Wish me happiness. :)

I thought things will change for the better.. or is it just me?
Im kicking a fuss over nothing. Sorry.

有温柔

Din managed to find the MV of this song. Anyway got to know this song thru this show. Its chirpy tune makes me happy and wanna go lala along.

For all the sad people I know - 送给你！

Im not happy :(

I find it harder to concentrate during work. Is this what I want to do? Dealing with the nonchalants everyday. Only thing I love is the working hours and the flexibility. Is this another comfort zone? But no, I dun feel like Im in a comfort zone at all. This industry doesnt interest me, and Im finding hard to stay alive and keeping the interest flame burning. Sigh, not that theres no room for me to grow, but its just that what can I do? Whenever I thought of the decision to switch job, I somehow keep thinking back if Ive made the correct decision. I know Im never contented. And this feeling sucks.

I miss my previous job, where my colleagues became my close friends. Here, really we are just colleagues working together.
Few days ago, I have a guest facebooking me to send his regards but I really have no impression at all. That feeling of not remembering sucks. He must have felt embarrassed when I told him I dun have much impression of him. Im sorry.

Im actually feeling quite lost at this juncture of my life. I know, grass is always greener at the other side. I keep reminding myself and I have to learn how to be self-contented. But somehow, it doesnt work everytime, I dunno why.

I dun wanna talk about marriage over here, because basically I also dunno what Im landing myself into. My life is in a total mess, lost about my career, lost about my life and lost about my goals. But whats new? Im always lost.

Leaving the hospitality environment took me a lot of courage, and re-entering it needs twice the courage. Should I?

品冠 - 我以為

This song is specially dedicated to you. I know we are over, but listening to the lyrics, somehow reminds me of you.
It fits perfectly into our situation, whereby you tried so hard, so much effort put in and in the end, nothing came out.

Part of the lyrics says -

他让你红了眼眶
你却还笑着原谅
原来你早就想好
你要留在谁身旁

我以为我够坚强
却一天天地失望

And it says it all.

Im writing this entry, not to mock at you or trying to dig up those sad memories. I just feel that it describes us so much so much.

大家现在都在忙各自的生活，那个‘特别’也随着时间变淡了。但是偶尔传来的一句‘晚安’，还是很温暖。

祝你开心。
铁女

My mind is in a whirl now. Im having mixed feelings about my future. Whats gonna happen with you, and without you?

Sorry That I Loved You

I loveeee this song. I cant descibe the sadness that it brings to me whenever I listen to it.
And I think the emotions in me right now plays a part too. Hai