Im not happy :(
I find it harder to concentrate during work. Is this what I want to do? Dealing with the nonchalants everyday. Only thing I love is the working hours and the flexibility. Is this another comfort zone? But no, I dun feel like Im in a comfort zone at all. This industry doesnt interest me, and Im finding hard to stay alive and keeping the interest flame burning. Sigh, not that theres no room for me to grow, but its just that what can I do? Whenever I thought of the decision to switch job, I somehow keep thinking back if Ive made the correct decision. I know Im never contented. And this feeling sucks.
I miss my previous job, where my colleagues became my close friends. Here, really we are just colleagues working together.
Few days ago, I have a guest facebooking me to send his regards but I really have no impression at all. That feeling of not remembering sucks. He must have felt embarrassed when I told him I dun have much impression of him. Im sorry.
Im actually feeling quite lost at this juncture of my life. I know, grass is always greener at the other side. I keep reminding myself and I have to learn how to be self-contented. But somehow, it doesnt work everytime, I dunno why.
I dun wanna talk about marriage over here, because basically I also dunno what Im landing myself into. My life is in a total mess, lost about my career, lost about my life and lost about my goals. But whats new? Im always lost.
Leaving the hospitality environment took me a lot of courage, and re-entering it needs twice the courage. Should I?
I find it harder to concentrate during work. Is this what I want to do? Dealing with the nonchalants everyday. Only thing I love is the working hours and the flexibility. Is this another comfort zone? But no, I dun feel like Im in a comfort zone at all. This industry doesnt interest me, and Im finding hard to stay alive and keeping the interest flame burning. Sigh, not that theres no room for me to grow, but its just that what can I do? Whenever I thought of the decision to switch job, I somehow keep thinking back if Ive made the correct decision. I know Im never contented. And this feeling sucks.
I miss my previous job, where my colleagues became my close friends. Here, really we are just colleagues working together.
Few days ago, I have a guest facebooking me to send his regards but I really have no impression at all. That feeling of not remembering sucks. He must have felt embarrassed when I told him I dun have much impression of him. Im sorry.
Im actually feeling quite lost at this juncture of my life. I know, grass is always greener at the other side. I keep reminding myself and I have to learn how to be self-contented. But somehow, it doesnt work everytime, I dunno why.
I dun wanna talk about marriage over here, because basically I also dunno what Im landing myself into. My life is in a total mess, lost about my career, lost about my life and lost about my goals. But whats new? Im always lost.
Leaving the hospitality environment took me a lot of courage, and re-entering it needs twice the courage. Should I?
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