Im tired of my life suddenly. Im sick of going through the same process everyday. Whether is it the same input or not, its always the same output. Shucks.

Sometimes I feel that Im living my life for other people, and not myself. But then hor, I ve got nothing to live for also. Then Im tired of the people around me. I always need to look out for them, ensure they are well-fed, ensure they got no worries or unhappiness etc. If not, I'll feel very upset also. I live too much for them, and Im suffering.

And sometimes I think I shouldnt have got involved in FB or things like that. They always let me see things that I dun wanna see.

My mind feels in a mess now, and I dunno what Im talking about. Time flies, we just celebrated the end of 2009 and now CNY is due in Feb. Bleah. Time passes too fast that I dun even know what Ive been doing. Is it wrong to compare? I bet that even you will not understand what Im writing in this post. You never seem to understand what Im thinking deep down in my heart, sometimes just superficially. But I guess no one do. Cause even the closest to me does not know. So tell me again, who do I live for huh?