2155H.Cloudy.Moody

Would you happen to know how neglected I feel? No you wouldnt.

Would you happen to know how Im feeling right now? No you wouldnt.

Would you happen to know which day Im off this week? No you wouldnt [& it has passed].

Would you happen to know how lonely I am? No you wouldnt.

Would you happen to know my worries & fears? No you wouldnt.

Would you happen to know Im tearing inside me while blogging? No you wouldnt.

Sometimes I just wish you wouldnt think that Im throwing tantrums for nothing. Is because Im feeling sad & Im upset. But ITS OKAY. Nobody cares, neither shall I.

Bye.

1245H.Sunny

If I got down on my knees and I pleaded with you,

If I crossed a million oceans just to be with you,

Would you ever let me down?

If I climbed the highest mountain just to hold you tight,

If I said that I would love you every single night,

Would you ever let me down?

Whenever I listen to this, it just gives me goosebumps all over. What a sad love song and I love it. Oh so sentimental & old school.

21st January.0050H.Quiet & Humid.

When I was in Secondary School, I remember there is this subject call CME or CEM [I cant remember la anyw..]. Theres once when we were asked abt this topic about love differences or sth like that.

My answer straightaway was that love can conquer everything. If theres love between you & me, every problem can be solved, somehow someway. As I grow up, I realised its not the case anym. No matter how deep the love is, there are just some problems that cant be solved just by I love you & You love me. No, everything in life is not that simple & easy anym. Well, sth that I learnt in life.

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How I wish I can be that someone special in the upcoming Vday. I know I know, I normally dun give a heck about Valentines Day. But its not just the day itself, its actually more than that. I just wanna know how much I stand in you, and how much our relation is in you. But i know, I shouldnt hope for too much, cause you know & I know... he is a 大蘑菇.

19th January. 2100H. Rainy & Windy.

My off day, I spend the whole day at homee. Thanks to serene, my breaddy who came to help bling2 my phone & camera. =p

P/s. Its time I learn to be independent and be on my own.

Really, I think Im gonna be deaf anytime.

My ears just keep drumming for no reason. And theres this weeeeeeks sound whenmy ears are blocked. Nabehh

p/s. I wonder when will the dark circles go away. Oh 小猪, we belong together. =P

Hai. My Boyf is a 大蘑菇 =(

I dunno whats on this 21-year old guy's mind. Seriously, I think **dians are really stupid la. Please take some time to read..

Not content with killing a pregnant prostitute hours earlier, an Indian national brought another back to the scene of his crime to have another round of sex.
His sexual encounter with the second prostitute took place on a bed, which was hiding the body of the first.

This bizarre and twisted incident was told to the High Court as 21—year—old Madhuri Jaya Chandra Reddy pleaded guilty to a charge of culpable homicide, not amounting to murder.

The crime had taken place last September.

After two rounds of sexual intercourse in Diamond Hotel in Geylang, a scuffle broke out between Reddy and the 21—year—old victim after he demanded another round of sexual intercourse.
During the struggle which ensued, Reddy pressed tightly on the woman’s neck with hard force for between one and two minutes.
He only released his grip on her neck when he realised she was dead.

Reddy then stuffed the deceased’s body under the bed, but not before removing her gold chain and two gold rings from her body and misappropriating them.
He then dressed himself and left the room to look for another prostitute.

After finding one, Reddy proceeded back to the room at Diamond Hotel.
The pair had sex on the bed, even as the deceased’s body was stuffed under it.

They then checked out of the room and Reddy wandered around until daybreak before returning to his dormitory.

Later that afternoon, Reddy used the deceased’s mobile phone to make at least 28 long—distance international calls to India.
He was arrested at his dormitory two days later.

An autopsy report said the deceased’s cause of death was strangulation.
The baby boy in the deceased’s womb also died as a result.

The hearing has been adjourned till Thursday for Reddy’s mitigation and sentencing.
He faces a maximum sentence of life imprisonment.

CNY is coming. Its time to get a new screen protector for my F480.

No moolahs to buy new phone, so can only get a new protector to make it look new [= (So cost-saving hor, uncle low sure loveeee me for this! =p)

But then again, CNY '09 brings me bad memories. And I really really really hope that this year would be a happy CNY. Im sorry for how I treated you and took you for granted. But from the bottom of my heart, you really did have a place in it.

Haven buy the new yr clothes yet. No idea what to wear. Maybe just sth simple like shorts & a top will do la. Bought a top from BC, but haven received an invoice from them yet! *Fingers crossed! Hope that I'll be able to secure that item pleaseeee*

End of year is always so broke. Theres Xmas, then theres new year, follow by CNY, Vday etc. Xmas gifts exchange, new year parties, CNY ang baos moolahs, CNY clothes, CNY goodies, Vday presents exchange. Bleah.

Looking forward to friday!

Valentines happens to fall on CNY Day 1. And I wonder if Mr Low is going to plan anything for me, I mean us. I highly doubt so. =(

Somehow can feel a lil bit of stagnance in this relationship, even though he just 'pop' last month. The happiness & excitment died down pretty fast. Its all abt saving & saving. No leisure trips to reward ourselves, no staycations to relax the body & no chance to enjoy the quality time spent. I know I should not be complaining at this point of time, as we have already make plans and agreements on some of the stuffs.. But sometimes, you just wish that life wouldnt be so hard on you!

You see people going on overseas trips, you see people setting up business, you see people shopping for branded stuffs, you see people pursuing what they dream of, you see people have all the money for everything. What left you? Aite, I know confirm he will ask me to stop comparing [Like as if very much I wanted to hor].

You know sometimes I do self reflect on myself one lo!

I know I can be a bit petty at times, things that happened eons ago, I cant forget & it will be stuck on my mind forever. YES I MEAN FOREVER. So dun you ever do things that make me hate you ya! But you think if I dun give a bloody hoot about you, I will care abt what you did to me? Of course I treat you as one of me, thats why I get so affected by what you've done. YOU GET IT? *ROLL MY EYES*

And I get jealous damn easily. Its not my fault Im sorry. And Im really really trying my best to control this lil devil in me =p So forgive me okay!

I hate to say this but am turning 23 this year. Time to learn to be sensible, Aza!

Let the world come to you

Mary had a crush on a particular fellow. Her heart just pitter-pattered every time she saw him. In an attempt to win his heart, she invited him to posh dinner one Friday night. She took the day off from work to cook. When he arrived with a bottle of wine, Mary made the mistake of telling him that she had taken the day off from work to prepare. This put undue pressure on the situation. They couldn’t eat a fraction of the food.

After dinner, they kissed a bit, but then he decided to leave. They saw each other, perhaps two additional times, but Mary was the one trying to get close. He really wasn’t at all interested. At the time, Mary was heartbroken.

Now Mary sees that she was throwing herself at him – how unattractive! She could have cooked something simpler and not needed to take the day off from work either. She was trying too hard to get him to like her and that ruined any chance of having a relationship. When you are attractive, people come naturally to you and effortlessly. You don’t have to seduce them or get them to like you or win them over.

It takes work to seduce someone, attraction is natural and effortless.

Im tired of my life suddenly. Im sick of going through the same process everyday. Whether is it the same input or not, its always the same output. Shucks.

Sometimes I feel that Im living my life for other people, and not myself. But then hor, I ve got nothing to live for also. Then Im tired of the people around me. I always need to look out for them, ensure they are well-fed, ensure they got no worries or unhappiness etc. If not, I'll feel very upset also. I live too much for them, and Im suffering.

And sometimes I think I shouldnt have got involved in FB or things like that. They always let me see things that I dun wanna see.

My mind feels in a mess now, and I dunno what Im talking about. Time flies, we just celebrated the end of 2009 and now CNY is due in Feb. Bleah. Time passes too fast that I dun even know what Ive been doing. Is it wrong to compare? I bet that even you will not understand what Im writing in this post. You never seem to understand what Im thinking deep down in my heart, sometimes just superficially. But I guess no one do. Cause even the closest to me does not know. So tell me again, who do I live for huh?

Over the weeks.. Post-Apec Party, Boxing Day meetup, End of yr Boardroom party..

7atenine.Durty Nellies

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Marina Square.Suntec City

This's her face whenever she go out..


SEE? Even the baby is happier than her.

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Meritus Club Boardroom/6 Raffles Boulevard (=

Its not about uncle low thats troubling me this time. Who can I turn to this time. I feel so helpless. And I really dun want this to happen in real life. Im scared. )=

Dada & me will be going 拜拜 on wed. Really, we can feel its gonna be a tough year ahead. Just the 1st day today, everything was not going our way. She broke a bottle of Whiskey while I broke a bottle of red wine. Just at the stroke of 12 yesterday, she got scolded by our NABEH-IRRITAING security manager. And I woke up with bad hair day, bad face day and bad eye day today.

EVERYTHING IS bad, bad, BAD!

So many long weekends holidays in twenty-ten. Makes me feel like switching to office hours job too. )=