Im in a very terrible mood now. Im not having moodswings or PMS, for god's sake.

THERE REALLY IS ALOT OF THINGS GOING THROUGH MY MIND. But I cant say out. And I dunno who to tell to also.

WS & YB is gone. I cant go ecp to chill and cry out all my problems without them.

Was I being selfish to feel this way? How come I feel awful when I think of them together? This shouldnt be the case cause I should be happy since Ive made my choice. RIGHT?

Seriously, I must learn to be contented. Like what Pong said, dun keep dwelling on things that they nv do that u forgot to see the things that they've done.

Aza! Learn to suck it up! And really, its time u should snap out of your pessimistic thinking! Hai, I feel like puffing now. This is bad.. *shakes head.

Ive finally wrote to Singtel to complain about the stupid MioTV Plan. Been procastinating it for too long. And since Im in a very bad mood today, I thought, why not?!

Din managed to get their email address, if not I'll would have just write a long damn angry complaint email to them. Instead I just went to their website and wrote on the feedback thing.

Here it goes...

I just wanna say I'm very dissapointed with your MioTV Plan, or rather the technical side. Ever since Ive signed up in May, there has been numerous problems and Ive lost count on the number of times I need to call the technical support helpdesk. Your guy even had to come down once to solve the problem and I must say its really a waste of BOTH our time and resources. The same problem keeps repeating every few wks and I dun see the reason why this is so since Ive already followed exactly what the technical guy taught me to resolve it. IT IS A WASTE OF MY MONEY since I had to pay for the wireless modem every mth as well. I am utterly dissapointed in this, not to mention the numerous troubles I had with the wireless internet the last time. This will be the last time I'm signing anything up with Singtel. Thanks

I couldnt write alot since they had the word limit. FUCK.

Anyway, its one item down my list. I got to stop procastinating.

All the way Aza!

And yeah, another week's gone...

Ive been living day by day lately again. No motivation, no goals. NOTHING.

Ive been saving up, but no short-termed goals. I cant go overseas, not even a short trip. I cant buy branded brands. I cant even go hotel stay and relax myself for that one day. This is so upsetting.

The other day, I felt so tired I slept on bus while on way home. And I overslept my stop. )= Had to alight at boundary rd and being so tired already, still need to climb the overhead bridge to get to the bus stop opposite. Punishment!

You know one day while I was on my way to work, I felt so moody. I had the thought to go resign and I want to lead my own life! I thought aloud, 'Im sick of serving caucasians anymore!' Then I ponder for a few seconds, I took back my thoughts. Im even terrified of serving singaporeans. *stuck out my tongue*

If you asked me whether I love my job, honestly I wouldnt know how to answer that question. I used to reply with full confidence that I love being in the hotel line. It lets me interact with people from all over the world. I made friends and I learned alot of things from them too. But now, as Im getting older, I cant imagine myself still doing what Im doing now 5yrs down the road. And what exactly do I want, I dunno as well. It feels like as though Im lost in the deep dark hole again (yes again). Sometimes I just told myself to get married and settle down being a housewife, and all I have to worry abt is whether the prices of the veggie in the markets have gone up or gone down, and things like that. Hahaha. But I know I wouldnt be satisfied one day.

Oh boy, Im so lost... )=

I love this hair.

Should I go cut?

But her face is damn small la. And mine is like so big. And getting bigger.

Should I should I should I?!

Im sorry for the lack of updates. I dunno what Im doing. Its just work, home, slack, sleep and uncle low. )=

I wanna blog abt my work, my job. But I dunno how to go abt doing it and how to even start.

I guess its all abt performing and impressing.

I dun wanna go into details cause its all only my presumptions.

Im not saying Im not happy going to work. But its just suddenly I feel that everyone has changed. And I dunno why. Or is it just me? FUCK

You know, I get so upset because Ive come to the stage whereby...

I cant fit into FREE SIZE anymore!!

Boohooohooo.

I just bought some clothes online. I thought I'll be on the safe side when I see free size.

When they arrived, I found that Im too big for their free size!! Nabeh. #$%@@!!