the agony of losing and missing someone...

hairul was talking to me and he popped out this phrase.

how much both of us totally agreed on this.

i guess you and me felt the same way.

its been awhile since ive blogged abt you.

how are you.

are you still getting sleepless nights?

did you try my warm honey concoction?

i'll see you for wasabi whine-and-dine session tml okay?

its been some time.

good night, and sleep well.

if only..
promises on this earth would last.....

its isolation mode at home now.

was browsing through this website yesterday night.

got to know him through my interview that time. he's a wedding photographer.

very nice pictures he took. and alot of ppl's memories were captured in his camera.

a wedding: only tears of joy and happiness. smiley faces all day long. its really a very joyous occasion.

you know, ive been listening to this song over and over again
these few days.
i cant describe the feeling, but you know some songs, when you hear, it just keep ringing in your head and you get all goosebumps listening to it.

im falling in love with this song...

stop my background music and take a few mins to listen...

Bei Ying 背影 - Yoga Lin You Jia 林宥嘉

irene teo li ling...

WHEN ARE YOU SHOWING US YOUR BF'S PIC!!!

having been to his place for dinner liao,

having even go to BKK with his family liao,

having even to plan for buying flat liao...

isnt it time for us to at least have a peep?!

i just finished reading Twilight this afternoon.
my only reaction after flipping to the last page...
*wide grin on my already-v-round face*
some sense of relief that ive finally finish this thick book,
some sense of excitement what the next book will tell.
good.


the series!! i wanna buy and stock up my mini library!!



another novel that ive finished reading.
abit late to read this la,
cause most of my friends have already read them like dunno how long ago.
hahahha.
its good but dun expect too much.
cause almost everyone whom i know, agree that its not as good as what we had expected.


coming up...
actually already in my bag la.
most probably will start reading tml. (=

after the 5ppl, it'll be your turn!!!

(=

my oh-so-good mp3 died on me yesterday night,

for no good reason. -_-"

it was still charging okay-ly, thereafter when i unplugged from my lappy,

it just suddenly go haywire and stop operating.

SOBS SOBS.

nobody knows how sad i am,

cause i cant live without music!!!

but anyway, it came back alive today again!!! LALALA. (=

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anyway, THIS is YOGA LIN.

went to his concert (my ever 1st celebrity concert in my whole 22years!)

hmm, not bad la! din know his songs all quite nice.

but my main motive is S.H.E!!

oh my Ella and Hebe.

近距离ok!!!

but i miss out my fave song 伯乐!!

i couldnt stay till the encore so after the last song i went back.

turned out to be the song that ive been waiting for sooo long!!

SO ANGRY CAN.

okiesss....

credits to kylie chow for getting the free tix for us. (=

apparently we got the most expensive tix lo.

hahaha.

where on earth can get such good lobang u tell me.

next time better pray hard hard some goody celebrities come my hotel stay then can get free tixs. =D

eh seriously i think the pictures below....

either is because of the top im wearing or the angle.

cause i dun think im THAT skinny ok.

so ugly.. )=

ive already been on buffets binge recently.

hopefully, end of the month there'll be some results.

Happy Valentines Day

so sy decided to cheer us up by dating us out. *effort (=*

we saw too many ppl on streets holding bouquets, looking smug.

all of us were like, "lol! whats so good abt flowers.' seriously, we would prefer some other things like a bouquet of ferrero (at least we can eat e choco) or credit cards (even better). hahaha!

nono, we are not materialistic. in fact, we are just more down-to-earth, practical and realistic. (=

i'll just let the pics do the talking.

theres more on her kingkong camera, yet to send.

meanwhile just bear with the not-so-good resolutions one la huh.

thats my darlings - sy & jing

as u can see from the pictures, im sort of like the 'giant' between them. (=

fidgeting with the camera...

this pose reminds me of the sleeping shorts position. *wink wink LOL*

round face no-features ghost

nothing better to do.

us - chilling by the river

Chloe.

mins just after coming out. abit dirty la.

see the hair? oily oily like tt.

few days old. taken just mins ago. (=

she got rashes under her eyes leh!!

up till now, i still dun dare to carry her lo.

the last time i carry an infant was like over 10yrs ago,

which was my brother. hahhaa.

i seriously cant carry la, im too scared they'll wriggle out and dropped to the ground. LOL

i bought a vday present for myself. (=

a lenovo laptop.

current toshiba has been with me for almost 5yrs,

and shes almost dying. thats why i decided to purchase a new one on this special day. hahaha.

was looking for something thats very ultra basic and cheap, cause i just wanna online with it and nothing else, so no need for a very good one.

went challenger and saw this lenovo at only 699bucks, and 1dollar to upg to 2gb ram. kelvin and sis was with me too. they think its not bad so i just bought lo. hohoho.

when i came back, then i realised theres no cdrom drive de!! which means i must go buy a external cd drive. )= but i just wanna install some stuffs with cdroms, so aint going to buy la. bin's helping me to source for one from his friend. (=

thank you laaa.

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sis admitted to hospital yesterday evening already.

hmm, then this morning at 6.44am, kelvin msg me and say her water bag just burst and she's going in le!

but up till now, still no news leh! wonder if she can tahan the pain anot.

hopefully chloe and mama will come out safe and sound. lalala.

you know, sometimes i wonder if sis is envious of me.

cause i get to travel.

and i can just buy a laptop on the spot without any thinkings or so.

she must be thinking im very rich.

actually deep in my heart, i told myself.

you dun have to envy me.

cause ure actually more happy than me.

i dun have the things that you have, and you have the things that i wanted.

deep inside me, im actually a empty skull with just a skeleton underneath my flesh.

all these are just superficial things that i do to make myself happy.

so! be contented with what you have lo! anyway u got to save alot now cause chloe is coming out any min le. (=

jia you le...

been a few days since ive blogged.

so many tots running in my mind to blog but nth came out when im finally in front of the computer.

was reading thru my emails.

to cutie, to am, to sy, to jing.

suddenly i was so afraid of that period.

even now, when im just reading,

i feel scared. really fearful. )=

things haven been going quite well at home.

mom and sam are on cold-war-terms again.

luckily got sis and me at home.

bo i'll be the only one sandwiched in between them again.

i dun understand, why cant one family live harmoniously together.

so sian. i dun wanna think and dun wanna care also la. (i felt so irresponsible while typing this out)

sis's going to give birth soon, sometime next week.

well, i dun think i'll be able to visit her in hospital,

cause that lady at work had given me afternoon shifts the whole of next week.

she's mad lo sometimes. and i cant be bothered to argue with her, seriously.

had a meetup with am (finally!) and jing on wed.

im starting to get alil worried.

we were talking about my hearing problem.

i seriously cant hear what ppl are telling me.

i dunno whether is they are too soft or i cant hear properly.

sobs.

and lastly to you,

for the last time, im going to apologise.

i'll take what you sms-ed me tt night to heart.

i tot you dun wanna stop contacting just like that, thats why i contacted you back.

but i din know you will still be harbouring some thoughts.

maybe i shud just stay away from you for some time.

anyway, thanks for everything that you've given me and the support.

i wun forget you. (=

my fingers are getting better. (=

without the washing and those strong detergents.

hopefully they'll cure before the club reopens.

one month down at the reception, running around indulge and bar @ coleman.

my feets are breaking, really breaking. i desperately need a good massage, cause my back is breaking as well. Due to the bending eveyday. )= hai.

my mind is made up.

i will not talk about it anymore

as all of us are tired.

its kept inside me.

but i'll still remain happy,

if i am happy.

nobody trust you, but i do