erhem, something to annouce.

im going up club 1st august!

and its like FINALLY.

really finally.

but i scared sia.

the uniform make ppl look so fat.

somemore u know my face is so round,

if i wear the uniform together with the bowtie ah,

OMG. sure like humpty dumpty one.

i will take a picture.

i wonder how can irene & kylie tahan.

hehehe.

misses.

and joanne and jess.

sighs

the past few days was so down!

i really feel so depressed and upset,

so much that i totally have no mood for anything.

and then tears flow out again.

all i can say is,

im hoping for a better tomorrow, a better future.

)=

Why my song never come out?

Is there any songs playing in the background?

its been sooo long that i really really

sob hard into his arms.

long as in sob hard and crying out loud/.

into his arms, thats the 1st time i think.

i miss my times,

when i was happy & stressed-free

i dunno what ive eaten.

i been farting for the past few minutes.

and it smells.

lucky there's no one aound me.

as usual, i feel alone at home. (even tho theres ppl in my house)

sighs.

i feel so lonely, so lonely that i want to cry.

sobs

have you ever feel that

life is such a bore?

that everyday is just repeating itself?

even tho the ppl we meet are different,

the things we do are almost different.

im so bored of life leh, seriously.

and when i mention things like death,

sian of life, i kena slapped in the face.

what is THIS?

im lazy to update ppl abt my life, (anyway theres no updates, EVERYDAY IS THE SAME)

everyday,

we just go work, get scoldings for doing the wrong things, for doing things so slowly, or for nothing, we get scolded by people we dunno, especially indians.

fuck off!

or issit im just too slow & stupid?

i worked to serve you, show me some respect at least!

i dun owe you a living.

after work,

we go home. sometimes (almost most of the time) to a empty home.

even if there's ppl inside, it feels like there is none.

there goes my one day. i sleep and its the next morning.

is this the ordinary life that ive always wanted in the past?

OR WHAT?

happy times always end in a blink of eye.

sufferings are always a stretch long.

and my life feels like that exactly.

im tired.

i tot only such things will happen in dramas.

like the girl getting drunk and start to sob and cry,

then the guy who admires her, protects and consoles her.

and things went out of hand,

the guy pin the girl down on the floor,

gave her a few tight slaps and hurled abuses at her,

hoping to wake her up from the neverending hurtful dreams or reality.

the girl ran, dashing across the road without looking at any vehicles,

and then another one start to chase after her.

Sighs, tell me its all just a drama.

i shouldnt have cared so much, since its not my problem,

but i dun understand why im so affected also.

perhaps, its because..

she's my friend.

i know im not like this in the past.

or after that incident.

nobody can see me cry so easily,

or tears can easily roll down,

like tap water.

im hard-hearted to some who know me,

im a man, i dun cry.

hehehe, ive changed!

and i feel so much lighter and happier

that im able to let out my feelings.

right now, i just want to

WUAHAHAHA.

cheers!

eh i got so many things to blog about lo.

when ive got no internet at home, and ive got nothing to do,

or when something bad happen, i feel like blogging.

But when im blogging now, all the things that i wanted to blog,

suddenly went blank.

sighs, my memory getting very bad nowadays.

really..

let me start from the most recent ones...

picnic yesterday with deardear!

though abit nth to do and hot,

hahaha, but first time we have healthy activities.

hehhehs. plus cycling.

next time okay, next time when there's lesser people in ecp,

we go blading. whee whee.

i took pictures and am planning to do a collage of my picnic day!

erm, when i have the time lah.

today is the 1st of July,

which is the 1st day of the GST increase.

So many damn kiasu ppl, shop shop and shop b4 it went up.

But the changes also not very high right.

aiya, i also dunno lah.

all i know is i bought my facial stuffs for over 50bucks,

and maybe if i buy after 1st of July, it will be 60+dollars, ISSIT?

hehehehe.

i love my deardear!