i cant believe i just cried.

i got to stop all these.

ive been crying quite alot recently.

i dunno why.

dun ask me.

the more i say,

the more wrongs ive done.

i nv knew being honest with someone

can be so painful.

i nv knew being in love

can be so painful.

being in love with 2persons.

how painful can it be?

i thought supposedly.

its all my fault that i keep dragging.

i really have no idea things would turn out this way

for the both of us.

if only i could turn back time.

i really will take the initiative

and i wun mind at all even if u had reject me in the 1st place.

cuz i know i wun have any regrets.

if only.

attachment is coming to an end.

tml is the last day.

i guess it would be the last time

i would ever see him again.

i miss you.

i will miss those nights,

where we sat down after supper and strained our necks

trying to find shooting stars, listening to your problems yet there's nth i can help.

and theres always a bottle of green tea to accompany you.

i will miss those days,

when we keep complaining abt how boring attachment is,

and how we wished to fail our exams and hoped for 'the best',

how depressing is the operator room and how we yearn to go up to the orchid club.

some things will always be kept as memories,

even if my hard disk crashed, and there's no way i can get back all my stuffs,

you know theres always memories of us in my heart.

i apologise for giving you false hopes, for making you feel uneasy.

forgive me for all the hurt that ive inflicted.

i love you.

goodbye, jon.