Just had a fight this morning. Maybe I should really treasure my time with him now Because when she is out, I guess it's normal to be down-ranked and the world doesn't revolve just around me n him anymore.

I don't ask for being the 1st, Because I don't wish to be disappointed. But sometimes the thought of not being the 2nd anymore hurts. I tried to not be like in the past, so dependent n falling head over heels Because I don't wish to be hurt again. Once is enough. He always asked if I still love him. I do, I still miss him when he's not by my side at night, I still love the days when it's just us out for date nights. But things are so different now. We do not have that burning passion. It's all responsibility and commitment that matters now.

Marriage sucks. If there is really everlasting love, I think marriage will destroy it.