Hello hello, well its been coming to one and a half years of marriage life. Not sure if Im still adapting well or, trying to at least.
Well, to be frank, I am still not comfortable and "carefree" staying together. I need the freedom and the space. Yes, I know that is not possible so yes I need to suck it in. So stop asking me why am I unhappy. Its just so difficult to stay together and get used to one another's living habits. ITS HARD. I tried, but I still am not happy. Maybe Im just hard to satisfied.
I dont like how she always ask me to greet people. I GREETED and I will greet. There is no need for unnecessary reminders like this.
I dont like how I do not have the freedom to walk "freely" in my room.
I dont like how I must often cramped my toes when I walked into the kitchen & toilet and most of the times have to rinse the toilet bowl cover before I can sit down & do my business.
I dont like how I have to interact with the kids once a year or so.
I dont like how when I opened the fridge and all I see are mess and uncovered food and maybe some expired cans.
I dont like how tables are always cluttered with unopened / opened letters and chips and all sorts of mess.
Cant really list down what else but yes there sure is. I am not perfect and I have my own bad points too. I guess its just the different living habits and the conditions that I was brought up.
I love him, and I only wanted to marry him. Not the whole kampong.
It isnt all bad staying together la. I mean yes la, there's good times but I can do away with these good points just to get my freedom lo.
Sometimes when I wanted to talk to him about how I feel, Im afraid he'll find me childish and ridiculous. Like hello?! There is seriously no solutions, so whats the point in talking about it ley? End up only both of us unhappy. I rather I'll be the unhappy one since all along I am that girl who is always unhappy about everyone and everything. So let it be lo.
Okay end of rant.
