Today marks the end of a very eventful year. From my family, my career to my lovelife, too many ups & downs. But then again, whats life without all these?

Im grateful to all who stood by me through my down times. Im thankful to all who lent me a hand when I badly needed you. But Im sad to say that some things may never be the same again. No matter how much we wanted to be like the past, the past is still the past. The wound is forever there. Im not being petty here, but I cant get over what had happened.

Anyway, toast to a better 2010..!

To serene, jing, sy, yx, am, cute, ling, jie, bro, mama, papa, pei, kylie, irene, joanne, jess, uncle low, bin & ryan..

Merry Christmas to all.

I wish for a better me and a better us.

Really, a bad mood really affects ur sleep. Nabeh, Ive been getting bad dreams, nightmares for the past few days. Its damn scary. =((

Okay, not like as if I dun get them last time. Last time was like maybe one in a few days? Now is like practically everyday! And I cant sleep well.

"Still with her?"

"Always will do"

....

The sweetest conversation ever.

My fringe's getting long, I need a haircut.

My pocket's getting empty, I need an extra job.

My heart's feeling lousy, I need a chillout.

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Xmas is around the corner, but Im not feeling the heat of exchanging presents and celebrating. Not in the mood for the upcoming new year either. I always hated end-of-years & the new-years. Either I feel that Ive not accomplished anything or that 'oh, another year has passed' feeling. Both sucks either way. And I hate it. Even more so when Im in a terrible lousy now. =//

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I had this message from someone close to me recently. Haven heard from him very much ever since that happened. But it feels good to hear from him, and that he's happy with who he's with now. But I just somehow wish that he wouldnt be so cold to me.

Sy's back in town. (Sounds like Santa Claus). Just received a text from her. Meetup soon I hope. Its always dragging and postponing. Everyone's so busy. I love them all, because they lighted up my poly depressed life.

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL...

A terrible bad mood tonight. SHUCKS

Whatever happened to those promises we hold for each other. Those lovely memories we had. Im not talking abt a particular person but actually as I look back on my life, theres so much ppl whom I had contact with and love. It starts with us being young and innocent. And then into our rebellious teen-age, then again into lovely young adults, and going on into another phase of life../

Hai, I wish we still retain those innocence we had when we were all young.

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Cant admit Im getting old or what. I just got a terrible headache this morning when I woke up after just 2glasses yesterday! Perhaps its the cigs who's doing the trick. Pics gonna be up soon as soon as the 'photographers' upload them. Very relaxed yesterday and I lovee. And nobody is in the mood for work today.

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I dun care if Im being childish. I dun like you to hang out with her. I cant stop thinking whats going on between you & her, like the conversation or what you would address her? Not another sweetie please. I dun care if she has a boyfriend already or how much she loves her. SERIOUSLY I DUN GIVE A DAMN. All I know is I cant stand you being with her. And I got nightmares because of the both of you. But no use telling you, you'll just brush it aside like how you always did.. and broke my heart.

Collection 3 up now..

You know Ive been procastinating to go see this dying man, a relative of mine actually. And now, I do not have the chance anymore.

I dunno why but my heart feels nothing when I heard the news. Just feel numb.

Got to go...

HELLLOOO. Im back from my TP. Failed terribly but a huge load off my mind. I felt immediately relieved like as if a big stone has just been removed. It was an experience for me la. Will give it a try again. (= NO WORRIES!

Recap of my terrible driving just now..

1st one - Directional Change. I dunno why but my car wasnt straight & I think I buang the kerb abit. I was too nervous to notice.

2nd one - Slope. OKAY!

3rd one - S course. I buang the kerb also. Lol. I practised before test perfectly okay leh! This is my most confident one lo! )=

4th one - Parallel Parking. Nabeh, I cannot see the pole cause of the heavy rain and then in the end buang pole. =//

5th one - Vertical Parking. I think okay but then because of the darn stupid rain, I forgot & I dunno what mistake I made.

Then Im out to the road liao. LOL. If I know I already fail in the circuit I wouldnt have gone out to the road. It was raining so heavily I was so scared nor. NABEH. I nv drive in such bad condition before. Suay suay today TP, pouring like mad like tt. HAI.

My instructor say I broke his record of failures nor. His worst one was only 36points. HAHAHA. I got 56. =p