Im so pathetic today.

Wanted to go for a dip in the pool but couldnt find anyone to accompany. So sad.!

Was walking part chelsea garden with jun today and I saw their pool. SO TEMPTING!!

And weather was so hot nor, I just feel like jumping down straight with my clothes on. Hahaha.

I miss the beerfest asia09. )= supposed to go for driving lessons just now, but last min francis called to cancel cause he's down with flu. I was so happy! Hahaha! Can save money.....

Just got pay but it feels like its the end month already. Yes Im broke again. Those never-ending bills and addtional debt to pay this month. I wonder how Im going to survive for the rest of the month. Oh yes, its my birthday month from tml onwards! I wonder if theres any discounts for haircut cause my hair is getting rather long you see. And I look like a mad woman at work. )=

Sigh, enough of these sad stories le la. Help me think of some ways that can make money drop from sky!!!!!! ARGHHHH.

Dammit, DAMmit, DAMMIT!

I cant stand her anymore! Please get me out of her soon!!!

Sucha BITCH, I start to wonder how can anyone stand her, let alone live with her?!

OH FUCK IT! DAMN YOU!

I wonder.. did I really made the correct choice.

I saw that comment and cant imagione whats going thru his mind at that point of time.

For a second, I almost have the urge to finish everything with him and say, "sorry Im done with you!"

I feel so disappointed. And I dun wish to have a 2nd time anymore and be a laughing stock! Oh Fuck! I hate you!

I like this...

Aza & XYZ (yes, its the same XYZ that we're talking abt in my previous post) are working morning shift one fine day up at the club.

Bryan and Ryan, down at the reception chatting.

Bryan: eh, i wanna watch the movie angels & demons leh..

Ryan: no need la. go upstairs can see already.

hehehe. oh, thats so nice of Ryan! hahaha. good illustration. *vigorously nod head*

I CANT STAND THE WEATHERRRR!

it feels like a oven outside and i cant wait to go back to my room lo!!

anyway i was so mad just now.

the conversation between me and XYZ just now...

me: sorry xyz, need to request 9may off. thanks

xyz: already got leave applied. 'a' shift for u on 9th may

i was so pissed. u all are the one who wanted me to clear my leave, now i wanna request for off day for the other week also cannnot?! i was cursing and swearing all the way to uncle low.

me: so u mean if i take leave i cant apply for off day? and its a different week lo. whatever.

and i actually wanted to reply her 'whatever la', but seems a tad disrepectful. lol.

after 30mins or so...

xyz: i mean i already submit my leave and approve liao, on the 9th already got ppl on leave and off le....

MISCOMMUNICATION breakdown. but its okay, i dun wanna communicate much with her either. hahaha.

i say, why are there more ppl opting to spend more on honeymoon rather than wedding. i demand an explanation pleaseeee.

for me personally, i would spend on wedding nor. (anyway, tt miserable 1vote is not by me ok).

i want to have a memorable wedding. i'll rather spend more money to have a wedding that neither me nor my guests will forget and go for a nearby place for honeymoon like bali or phuket etc la. but of course i will not overspend till we need to scrimp after marriage. ALL WITHIN BUDGET...

cause you see~! wedding is a once in a lifetime thing (maybe), of course i will wanna spend when i can spend. i can always go for a second honeymoon when weve got extra cash. RIGHT, RIGHT, RIGHT?!!!

anyway, we're having a bet on who will win for this poll. PLEASE VOTE FOR ME!! and also, leave comments on why you choose your answer!! I HAVE ONLY A MONTH'S TIME

yah, i forgot to post up pic of my various hair length for you to judge..

Biao Yong, ure so wrong nor. Long straight hair just simply dun suit me leh. i wonder who cast the same vote as you.

Long Straight..


Long Wavy..

Short..

im too caught up with my homely affair that i cant be bothered to care abt other things else. so pardon me if i appear loof or have not been contacting you recently.

i think i'll be back next month.

anyway, upcoming poll....

would you rather spend more on your wedding or save so that u can spend on your honeymoon?

pls feel free to leave comments!

oh yeah, i simply cannot understand why must ppl appear 'anonymous' la, 'passerby' la etc etc. if you view my blog and wanna comment, go ahead and put ur real name la. i will welcome you, regardless of who you're. whats there to hide abt? WILL I EAT YOU UP? )=

you know wong lilin just host a show call 'unexpected access' or sth like that.. whereby she can get access to places ppl normally dun get into, like pig slaughtering place, inside the surgery room etc etc...

what if one day, you, too had the chance to either get access to those prohibited areas or become invisible so that no one can see you, where would you wanna go?

for me, theres afew places i would want to visit.

1- fire station

i am very curious what those fireman do when they are not on duty to fight fire.. is it like in those hk drama, whereby they will just sit and hang around in a lounge, drinking coffee playing computers.. and when the fire alarm rings, all of them will spring into action, slide down the pole and into their fire engine. hahaha.

2- prison / rehab centres

i think alot of ppl will be interested in this. how on earth is a prison cell like? are they like what they're shown on tv, toilet bowl and mattress all in one room, and the door is a metal one with only a small hole on top? and im quite eager to know their food menus and the ppl who cook for them too.

and the rehab centre, how do the officers handle those who are addicted to drugs? do they quarantined them?

oh yes, i forgot to mention, i wanna see the places where they sentenced ciminals to death and cane them too! im not a psycho la, but just curious abt the whole prison thingy.

3- the place where the undertakers work (not sure what place it is lo)

from the point they took the body from the crime scene to the point when the body is buried. do they play a very huge part? all these are so mysterious.!

how abt you? where would you like to go if u have the access?

i should be sleeping at this time now, because i got to wake up early tml morning.
had been working afternoon shift for the whole week, but for the past few days, i always need to wake up early to settle some stuffs. and i feel so lethagic by the end of the day. )=

was reading thru killla, and had some thoughts running through.

do you love yourself more or your parents more?

definitely most of them will say they love their parents more.

but then come again, lets say ure so tired of life already. (oh yes, we belong to the depressed anti-living types), and if u were given a chance to die, WILL YOU? or should i say, if either you or your parents need to go first, WHO SHOULD GO FIRST THEN?

well, u say u love your parents, so should they go first so that they wont be the one suffering after you're gone? BUT, HELLLOOOOO? we're already so damn pissed and dun-bother-to-live anymore, shouldnt we be the ones to go first? YES, here comes the selfish part. nobody wants to deal with the aftermath. NOBODY.

everything we do, theres always consequences to bear. the bad thing is sometimes, OTHER PEOPLE HAVE TO BEAR THE CONSEQUENCES FOR YOU!

which always left me feeling very unfairly treated. but well, sometimes..

its all in the hands of fate.

i love my family though.

i hate the dead hard skin on the below of my feet that results from standing and walking on heels for too long.

i hate the skin peeling on my toe and feet that results from dunno-how.

i hate the way my eyebrows grow anyhow anywhere, like as if it has no tomorrow.

i hate the way my pores on my face are, like as though ive just been steamed straight in the face.

i hate the way my hair 'qiao' to one side sometimes.

i hate the way my feet and whole body feel so dry after bathing.

i hate my toenails, the way they appear and feel so dry like as if they're in some sahara desert or sth like that.

and most of all, i hate myself for being so penniless at this point of time. )=

sorry, i just wanna rant and complain.. pls ignore.

im back from bkk last thurs.

so much things had happened these few days at home, and im really getting all affected. )=

its really a tough period at home now, and everyone is all jittering and scared.

i hope all will be settled soon.

to you...

i hope uve learnt ur lesson these few days while inside.

because of you, everyone at home is worrying and praying for the best, especially mom.

we went around praying for you, went around searching for lawyers to help..

where has my act-cool baby-beng you gone to? i thought of those days when we were young, so innocent still and naive...

but now, everything seem to have changed. you suddenly turn notorious, and even got involved with the law. for all that weve done, we only want the best for you...

hai.

*i prayed everything will be fine and over soon.....* sob sob sob

hellooo.

pls participate in my poll!

was thinking of going for hair extensions...

so what do you think?

long hair or short hair suits me better?

=p

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can someone please tell me whether my background song is playing??

i wanted to love you, but im afraid of going back to the past. )=