why wont those guys ever learn?

i will just wait for that one day,

when you really regret what you had done

and start to treasure ur family.

just hope everything is not too late.

am experiencing

those heart wrenching pain again.

sobs sobs.

i need love...

=.(

my off day today.

was supposed to go have my fringe cut and my nails done at

de'vella salon which is at chinese garden.!

but you know..

i lived in serangoon, and the journey is far too far lah.

so wo li bu cong xin.

in the end,

i stayed at home, surfing the net the whole day,

until i think my eyeballs are going to pop out.

i was reading my brother's blog.

i knew about his incident tt day,

but i din know that he was still so unrepentable.

which made my blood boil.

that 1st day at the wake,

i saw my mum weep for the first time,

when we were inside burning the joss paper for ahgong.

partly was because of ahgong's death,

partly was bacause of my bro's incident ba.

i knew she was very upset.

and i hate him for being so defiant.

when will he ever learn?

till he's sent to the boys home?

sobs.

maybe this is also the reason,

why i had my reasons for not wanting to give birth when im married.

(i know this is still early to say lah).

but ive seen too much worries and anxieties

of bringing up a child.

i stepped back.

as for the rest and the future,

i will leave it...

i received the sms on thursday.

everything was so confused.

then i broke down and cried,

cuz i din expect that it would be so fast.

he was well when in the hospital,

i still bought him kopi-o.

then he was brought home

for i dunno what reason ( i assume he was better).

then he suddenly passed away on thursday afternoon.

sobs.

yesterday was the funeral procession.

we were all so sad,

plus all the stupid sad music.

make everybody cry and cry.

then the cremation part.

sobs sobs.

)=

sigh,

bye bye ah gong.

oh!

i just realised ,

WHERE'S ALL MY ARCHIVES?

ALL GONE?

SHIT.

another shit thing happened.

what a day..

should i or should i not believe?

)=

the weather today is so hot,

even if i just come out from bathing,

my whole body still feels sweaty.

and after my makeup,

my whole face & hair feels like shit.

totally like what im feeling these few days.

sobs.

and its all because of him.

i dun like!

Buy me more nipples tapes, anyone?

oh yes!

yesterday did waxing!

after so much hesitation and waiting.

but yesterday was not planned.

i was working halfway,

then belinda called and asked me if i want to be model for waxing training.

thou was abit scary,

but since FOC then why not?!

initially was waxing for leg, underarms and bikini line.

they were examining my leg and then said i got no leg hair.

i have lo, just that very fine so cannot really see.

so no leg waxing for me in the end.

next was the underarms.

the hair was too short cuz i just shaved in the morning,

so cannot wax as well.

oh well. i blamed myself for shaving.

so in the end,

i only did the bikini line waxing.

hmm, pain but tolerable.

pain when applying the hot wax,

not so much when they are removing the hair.

but one side is not so clean lo,

cuz they are still training.

lol.

next time must grow more hair for them to wax!

so long since i blog.

im so busy lo, working then so tired.

sobs sobs.

yesterday out with jing.

first time after so long i felt so relaxed.

really relaxed.

dun need to worry abt work or anything.

and i can pour all my woes & worries out to her.

so good.

and then we can both worry abt whats coming into our lives.

you know,

we were at indulge having our dinner.

had 2drinks each and the bill came out to $160plus.

omg! luckily i got the 50% discount.

if not i think i sure kena condemned by the indulge ppl like fuck.

LOL.

pic of the day!