chalet's tomorrow.

dunno who's going and who's not.

jus wanna have fun.

and ive got ulcers.

and my feet hurts.

and i haven pack my stuffs.

because im lazy.

my toes feel more orhqi-er than before.

and they look blacker than they were on sat.

boo! what happened!

went ecp today to celebrate sy's bday.

we pitched a tent! so fun. and it was huge lah! 8 men's tent! whoo!

had picnic with only fried rice, sandwiches, coca-cola, green tea and our pola chocolate cake!

too many problems arises! but we still had fun.

bladed with sy. am n jing went cycling. yx was in the tent for one whole hour! she's too tired to do all these activities! jug-ga our tent for us. and we felt quite bad to leave her alone. ]=

coffee bean-ing after the night picnic. and more photo taking sessions. so much that we actually forgot about sy's wallet and am's archie comics that were used to stack up as a height for the camera. hoho! luckily we managed to get them back!

its good to see everyone having fun, being so excited about the picnic. but soon it passed again.

fell today cause of a bee. it flew right into my face and i lost my balance. and jing doesnt wanna help me! cuz she doesnt wanan fall as well! BOO!

after finishing my present for sy, i realised my creativity = zero. i really cant do all those arty stuffs lah. gosh!

 

 

 

 

i think all expressions more or less the same cuz i run out of expressions lah! uploaded some pics and there's still more. 

after my half cup maggi, i was bored.  

i think im lagged by a day.

too many stuffs happening. heh heh.

life has nv been more enjoyable than now.

but still, the thought is there.

anywayy, sat night~ WHEE!

bunch of fishermen were fishing and one stingray got hooked! poor thing. but was quite exciting leh. i nv see before! i wanna fish but no rods no hook no baits no everything! and no one to teach!

but before i leave this world i wanna fish at least once! ONCE WILL BE ENOUGH!

drinking at the rocks with an, kian fel, shouting with isk, yan. fun okay~! if only everyday would be as stressless like these few days.

but everytime as night falls, there's always a stream of unwelcomed feeling that overcomed me.

night out with serene yest. gosh, i was approached by the mada lah! cuz i was using a penknife to scratch my palm. and he tot i wanna do sth bad, like killing myself or others? dun worry mr police! its just that my palm is itchy.

and i happily go out without my keys lah! everyone was asleep. and my poor mother had to open the door for me. MUACKS!

boo~ and yes, my dad! he threatened to lock the door if i stil dun wanna go home! hahaa. he wanted to stay up late to wait for me! hahaa. so funny! i gt a cute father. oh ya, he looks like mickey mouse. [=

chalet's coming up. i know i'll feel sad when the last day comes. what am i going to do? just be there for me. and maybe im goin nch [izzit nch?] on wed! I AM GOIN! SO PLS COME PASIR RIS TO FETCH ME. wuhaha. im mean to ask a patient to fetch me when im supposed to acc him for checkup/.

ecp later with the clique.

ecp on friday. [=

zambak on my toenails!

they feel like being punched and kena 'orhqi'. died!

skating is fun.

especially with people like them. [=

2hrs is nv enough.

and help is always available.

chalet and momo on the schedule.

more to go!

before i'll be confined like a jailbird.

*BIsh!

this is for the evil slit eyes auntie that i met earlier and whom i'll be see prolly for the next few months. SAVE ME! i know she's going to bully me! I KNOW!

went for uniform fitting today with jon. hahaa! little did i expect he is as reluctant as me to work there! oh gosh, i think we will become good friends from now on!

some rules and regulations to follow. cb!
things i need to buy - stockings, hair net, black heels! im so sick of living!



went town after tt with jing n am to hunt for darling sy present! her bday celebration on monday! heh heh, its an event not to be missed. we're goin to be busy! do not disturb on monday okay! IM SO EXCITED! and she's going to drive us for the FIRST TIME! heh heh heh!




alone out there suffering. help is always available here. ive gt a nice heart. [=

sometimes.
its just so hard to make a decision.



everyone know ure good. but nobody know how bad i am. i cant go around telling ppl how mean and evil i am right? people who know will know. i just know what im doing is right and good.


maybe its just like the song.

WOAH! EXAMS ARE FINALLY REALLY OVER! no words can describe how i really feel now. quite excited and looking forward to all the post-exams aka pre-attachment fun.

back to the papers first. the only one that ive confidence in is dt. the rest sucks totally lah, especially ib, atm n hpm! ormitorhu! today is officially my last day in sch. thinking back, quite sad lah. almost finishing my poly life. met n know alot of people. some whom i really treasure and love. some can just fuck off. [=

i'll miss u guys! really! tb55, tb28. and tb32[some okay!]

anyway, i haven been to canteen 4 this year to eat the bento! and ive got no more chance! who can dabao for me?

pizza n pool [again!] after paper with the usuals. dunno what happened to lz today. he suddenly become mad and play quite well at pool, ALTHOUGH HIS WAY OF PLAYING IS WRONG! hahaha, aiya but who cares, as long as the ball gets in. [= and i was scolding him all the way. i dunno why, but everyone thinks he's eccentric. i super duper agree. and i cant get along with eccentric ppl. hehe! lz, this is for you! goodbye lz!

after finishing our turns at pool, was talking to yanyan. heh heh. we need money for all those.! and i seriously want to go and try! cuz i think they are very disturbing! so affected! so ugly! we wanna feel clean! SAVE SAVE SAVE!

prata at jalan kayu with an n jian! hehheh! 1st time there! not what i expected though. prata session was okay, but the tehbing not sweet enough! thaesevi - pls go and improve ur tehbing!

and i was tricked jus now! pls blame it on the two guys! i shall not believe u again! wanna go off without paying! HMPH!

anywayy, was supposed to go selegie with sy today to chill, but suddenly cancelled cuz she's not free! heh heh! there goes our dao huey session! pls plan again okay , miss tan!

been busy with papers. no time for everything! unwanted hair are coming out! i need to go trim my brows! and do sth about others when ive gt the money!!

boo! going for uniform fitting tml at grand plaza. seems exciting. but bored!!!! ARGHHHhhh

walao. came back from school today and guess what i saw! seconday sch boys smoking! and they look so young still lah! siao eh ppl! so young smoke. i wonder if their parents know! eeeks, so disturbing. i mean its okay for ppl to smoke lah, but they are just so young nia! what sia! i hope they got punished and cane or whatever!



today's paper was okay, i guess. went to play pool. hahaha. eh, i shall make pool my hobby from now on! with yan yan! isk shall be our master! and fel will be under kian's in charge (as usual). ooh! nobody cares about liangze!! hahaha.



anywayy, looking forward to post-exams fun! as stated by yanyan! booking of chalets on thurs, hopefully they are available. else me n isk will go mad! shopping n drinking with my buddy serene. bday celebration with my sy n clique! and maybe outings with some others ba. (= shall totally enjoy my 1wk hols before my attachment starts! and im supposed to go down on friday to try the uniform! THE HOUSEKEEPER UNIFORM! and i need to tie up my hair into a bun lah! where got hair to tie!!



was on my way home just now listening to mp3. heard a song that reminds me of someone. though we were not really close, but somehow that song reminds me of him. song of sadness. i guess he feels regretful that they turned out this way. anywayy, we no longer contact. (=



2 more to go! aza aza everybody!

new look.

and i gt a new hair colour which nobody realises until i spoke up. hahhaa.

exam-ing now. 3 more to go. and they are continuously next to each other lah. what the fuck! i hope i can pass with at least a C for the previous 2. can u believe it? i got five papers! torturing for my health n mind.

i wanna enjoy like no ppl's business! CAN I?

been mugging over at mac for the past few days, which means fried stuffs! and OIL SPOTS ARE GROWING ON MY FACE ALREADY! its so painful. )= someone help me to massage plsss.

just got back my atm abacus results. was supposed to fail but after moderation i passed lah. then now even higher than some who passed in the 1st place. haha. maybe my kuku teacher made a mistake. i shudnt have fail in the 1st place. hahaha

i dun care whether your friends or cousins or family dislikes me. that was between me and you. and now its over, even though i was in the wrong, i admit i let you down, but i dun think they shud let their feelings of hatred or dislike known to me. i dunno how ure handling that now, maybe ur family thinks bad of me, maybe she thinks i shudnt be contacting u at all now. maybe u had a quarrel with them over me and had strained ur relationship, im all sorry for that. some things u may choose not to tell me or let me know, i respect ur decision. maybe u just dun wan me to gloat over them. u feel that way, but i wont. thats how deep u understand me.

the song was on air twice. even though it was ur song between u and her, somehow there was memories of us when it was being played.

although i had been enjoying myself ever since, whether its with guys or girls, it was rude of you to say that of me. all those about my act big attitude, me selling myself, cant live without blah blah blah was mean. u got it, u know it.

yay. finally figure out how to do my ATM fare calculations! hehhehheh! all thanks to isk lz and kian. [=

shall mug on IB and the rest tml! not enough time! boohoo! GOD PLS GIVE ME MORE TIME!

fireworks on sat night with ziling fel kian. after fel n kian left, chatted with ling. din know we share so much in common, but sad to say its all abt the sad stuffs in life lah. but it feels good that someone shares the same thoughts as you, especially when you just get to know each other better. muacks, ziling!

lets experiment life and **tada together! its a pity we are not attached together in grand plaza. oh else it will be fun!!

but anyway, the main thing is sat evening was wonderful!! heh heh. i heard a voice whom ive nv heard for soo longgg. erm, maybe about 1 yr? feels great. you wont know that feelingg!!!!!!

was not prepared for the call so dunno wad to say lah! so sound abit boring but inside im flying over the moon one lo! hahah. somersault-ing! whoo!!

credits to MS WONG!

i was criticised by someone for blaming on others instead of looking into the mirror and see the fault myself! i was accused of being materialistic and money faced yet i shud just go back and look into the mirror? what the fuck! THEY DUN EVEN KNOW ME, YET THEY MADE THESE STUPID COMMENTS AND ALL YOU CAN DO IS TO ASK ME TO STOP BLAMING ON OTHERS AND LOOK INTO THE MIRROR MYSELF? how nice. all those nasty words from you and them, i dun wish to hear anymore. especially your assumptions and accusations.

anyways, what izzit about the open-ess and good figure talk?! i dun think i know u that well enough to talk about all that! so what if ure good looking? scram if ure just looking for someone with good figure, big boobs blah blah blah. SIANESS.

sometimes i feel so helpless lah. my friends got problems yet i cant do anything, and i dunno how to help also! im quite bad when it comes to consoling. shite!

im so tired. everytime i wanna start on my revision, sleepy god will come and take me away. hehe. cham! i think im goin to sleep soon. need to wake up with a fresh mind and start mugging!!

ice skating pics on thurs.

kbox with them after skating. just fun and fun! i wan more!

i start to bald when i was young. hehe  

i used to have nice long hair too. ]= 

i went mad one day and went to have a haircut. its a hunk on the right, a babe on the left! 

this ugly pic is to show how terrible my hairstyle was. )= 

the highlighs are free! went to have a new haircut also. its short at the back, long at the sides 

finally it grew longer. a 'human' hairstyle at last. 

its ash. my behind is still short. 

it shines! 

dash of redness at the front. 

i went to cut it short! 

i dyed deep burgandy 

and now the recent one! 

today was a great night.

sparkles in the dark sky seems to light up my heart also. everything brightens up with the shoot-up of each sparks. it was nice. really nice. i was tearing a teeny weeny after it ends. jus a bit emo lah.
fireworks tonight was great. went with wanting, liangze, kian and fel. but the 'couple' wasnt with us lah. wanting and me were like whoo-ing and wah-ing throughout lahh. we shared the same feelings that i guess only we know. people like liangze would nv know...
din take any pictures cuz ting's cam batt died on her, which was a pity. we were pretty tonight. wuahaha.
i love fireworks so much! even though i would feel empty after every round, but it still nv fails to brighten up my life even for jus that teeny 10minutes plus. sigh. i wan fireworks. ]=

my forefinger hurts! dunno what happened. seems to be aching inside, like kena pulled then the muscle overstretched. and the funny thing is that it only happened to one finger. hahah. nonsense!

back to thinking abt wad to do aft graduation. grad night will be on 1st mar. after that how?? somebody lead me pleaseee. wanted to study, but money money money. i confirm cant get into local uni lahh. my results are like horrible shit. so my alternative will be SIM. we'll see how 1st ba.
was planning to join the airlines after graduation to get some experiences first. i think i need to be more bold and daring. sighs. im tired.

think my entries are too boring. i will go find some pics of me with the different hairstyles that i had before and post them up! heh heh.

mutual love is a happiness that doesnt come by easily.

what if the day when i got married, my husband died on the way?

e more tv shows u watched, e more lonelier you'll get.
this is what i get from watching tv and rotting at home the whole day today. and TODAY IS A SATURDAY! i used to complain being tied down and now, i complain having too much freedom till im bored. ohwells, ppl are nv satisfied.

woke up at 12plus today. slacked in the living room, walked in and out of the kitchen. had my 1st meal at about 3plus. supposedly was sitting on the massage chair waiting for 430, but i fell asleep till 6plus.
called the kfc delivery, and they gave me a lame excuse.



so im supposed to go all the way down to kallang bahru lah?! i might as well order mac.

i feel so bored. from yesterday night till now.
i wan jacky.
i wan elvin.
i wan qiuze.
i wan alfred.

guys who can sing really attracts me. it makes me ponder, are they as good as when they're on stage?

oh yesh, before i end this entry, SUPERBAND! almost forgot.
i dun understand why the organiser wans it to be a voting game. i seriously think that the judges should have a part in it too. whats the point of having a star or band whom the public thinks can sing well, but not the judges? anywayy, i love lucify and j3! and awi and alfred from soul! whee whee.

its two in the morning.

for the past few hours, ive been crying in my heart.

cant seem to think properly. thinking that everyone seems to be away from me. disconnection with my close ones.

whats wrong? i dunno. upset, lonely, down, moodless. picking a fight with anyone who steps on my tail. sorry about that. [you know who ure]. just when i was about to apologise for losing my temper, he went offline. sighs. life!

moodswings have been getting into me these few weeks. i dunno why and e feelings sucks. the loneliness is back again, and i get irritated easily. *sobs.

just when everything is beginning to start, its ending soon. *poof.

i miss tb28. i miss tb55. i miss my love. *muacks

i know its abit late lah, but since ive nth to do.
sentosa pics!

caleb having fun with mel's camera

mel mel, fel fel, za za, ling ling

ziling suddenly cut into our photo! bt we still love her!

isky, melly, felly!

kian and caleb in the tram to siloso

our new found bf

isky happily buried in the sand.

1st, it was mel on isk

then its me!

next is isk's fave fel!

lastly the manly caleb! [isk is dying]

we love each other to bits! *hugs hugs

cute ziling and pretty felicia

the floral girls - fel mel

the heavy wind blew her hair up and mine sideway!

the buddies - melly ling2

my new found brother - isky & i posing!

nth to do!

finale. we're going back. that's the 8 of us tt day!

thanks for everything. [=